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Get a sense of direction!

2005-10-25T20:42:00.000-07:00

Currently shifting all my blog posts over to wordpress.com, but, not all has been shifted. So i am sorry to say that i am still going to blog in this blog, till my new one is up and running (not in the mood for editing now =( ) By the way, if you want to check out the template, click away to: Jestful Jazmyn, Newly Weds and Cosmopolitans!

Fairy Tales

2005-10-23T18:04:00.000-07:00

Currently reading Nancy Krulik's Newly Wed and listening to Shapeshifter's Back To Basics. I am so over the whole Nobody Wants To Be Lonely thing now. I really love Nancy Krulik's style of writing a romance/comedy novel. She really knows when to draw a line between fantasy and reality. To put it simply, this book is about a couple - Jennifer (Jen for short) and Jesse - having to adapt being Just Married (duh, the cover says it all) and goes through the ups and downs being one. They met through online dating, under the website Duets and decided to get married after knowing each other for like, 8 months. Wrong move. But despite the disagreements from their parents, both wed happily on their wedding day; but, will it last? So far, they have quarreled once, but made up later. To put in simply, Jesse is real tolerant when it comes to Jen. He would never do anything to hurt her. Hmm... what a dreamy husband to have. ~ Don't be fooled by it's saucy cover and short blurb; because this is one book you would never want to put down. Depends. Guys, this is not much of a book for you. Just pointing out ;) ~~ This few days has been a dry spell for me. No TV shows, nothing; zip, nada. Now, I am reduced to read for 2 hours straight and doing word searches. Oh well, I guess it's fun in a way =) In fact, I love the current novel - as mentioned. Like the saying goes, you gotta try it, to LOVE it.

You give me a bad name

2005-10-21T13:27:00.000-07:00

Villa Wellness ended yesterday night. Oh boohoo, no Thursday nights for me anymore. Sighs, Christina took the undisputed title, leaving Lee Huey as the runner up. Though I really hoped for Lee Huey to win, cause she always appears to be the most persevering one in the show. Kudos to all the other 8 hopefuls who did not make it to the 'last one standing' round; they did make achievements outside Villa Wellness. ~ Remember to fill up the poll on my sidebar (scroll way down); Really urgent. ^^ ~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHAWN! today's the 21st, right? just checking. and to many 21st ahead. =) (the creepy smile that wanzhen detests)

It's must have been love; cause it's over now

2005-10-17T19:08:00.000-07:00

I finally got my Home Economics and English paper. Sigh. English was a little of the down side; i suck in english since i've even stepped in this school. My results just appears out of the blue, yelling, "are you ingenius?". The funny thing is, I did well for other subjects, except for my english remaining rather stagnant since the start of the year (repeating myself twice). Oh crud. Time to brush up on moi english. ~ Now, the problem with test papers are the marking errors. I know one would rather stab themselves than to admit to one; but i am so unbelieveable. So when my friend* turned around to double check an answer, mine appeared to be bogus. Nonetheless, i try to deny it, but my friend called up my english teacher to run through the answer. And what d'ya know? My answer turned out to be truly bogus. He walking to my test paper and slicing off a piece from my cake, I was deep in grief. NAH. Do you actually think one mark means so much to me? My friend, chill. Lay low on the guilt. Like they say, honesty kills; But it'll pay off one day. It beats better from denying. ~~ Today's Home Economics lesson really teaches me to tame my expressive actions. I jumped out of my skin, in shock, during the lesson. All in the word, "CHEESE!". Bless my Home Economics teacher for giving me a silent wake-up call. Sorta. But not quite literally. Gosh, after the whole incident, I wish i could bury my head in a hole (similiarly to an ostrich) when my teacher pointed out my being shocked. =P ~~~ Note to Wanzhen: Are you serious about the whole 'i want a pet rat for my birthday'? Rats are cool. I can't wait to see the long awaited headlines appearing on the newspaper: "Unidentified Girl gets gnawed to death by birthday gift; rat blamed" Now wouldn't that be the news of the century? Yeah, i know, you're welcome wanzhen. I can pretty much guess what's your reaction towards this is gonna be. ~~~~ *name has been changed to prevent identification & pinpointing (in certain cases).

Killin' Kind

2005-10-15T14:39:00.000-07:00

Up last night, I sat down for a 2hour sitting of Fright Night. Vampires was the setting, but it was still a good watch. It brings back memories about Interview with the Vampire, huh? It is rare for me to enjoy vampire flicks because I stereotyped them as blood-sucking people who just roams around at dusk. And never fails to terrorize everyone or anyone that crosses their paths. Fearful of crosses, stab a stake in their hearts in order to achieve death, coffins as beds, etc. At least it owns a plot. ~ I slept at unearthly hours yesterday night, and awoke at 12noon the next morning. Yawns. Currently waiting for a game to load. Sadly, it is remaining at one fixed point - 54%. Sometimes, do you ever get the feeling that when you are busy - way up to your knees -, you just have so many tasks to complete yet so little time? Now, I just don't feel it and nothing's really much left to accomplish. ~~ When the going get's tough, the tough get's going. *shrugs*

Do I have a say in this?

2005-10-14T20:20:00.000-07:00

Close shave; but not so close after all. I was perturbed with my mathematics results this morning. A fingernail-length away from failing; and a wide difference (almost 15 bodies length) from scoring. But, who isn't very much delighted about their marks? I'm not the only victim here. To all: Whatever the results turn out to be, Take pride in knowing that much much more effort has been put in to earn the marks you have now. Hope someone relates to the note. May it help and be shared. Ever more. Ever more.

Self Denying hurts

2005-10-13T15:41:00.000-07:00

Seriously, i do not know where you guys get all the comic strips drawn by Peyton from One Tree Hill! That's just so cool. Especially the one with the traffic lights and Lucas, Brooke and Peyton aiming for this heart with a '3' branded on it. Please tag me if you guys know about links that leads you to these comic strips, I really wanna see where people post these stuff. X) ~ So, it's back to school tomorrow. What more can I say that I do not wish to know my results for this term's exam. I reckon that this is my worst yet. We have Science, Chinese, Literature and Mathematics tomorrow. Now, I am not enthusiastic about my science, nor my chinese. Don't even get me started on my literature. And I so bet that my mathematics teacher would want to go through section A tomorrow; for sure. Lo and behold for my name to be yelled tomorrow; I can even picture it in my mind, right now. Piping hot soup, here I come! ~~ Watched Mtv this morning, and it felt so good to go back to the Old School. Though a number of people smsed in asking about the videos and their existence. Hah, if Mtv could continue having videos from Jeremy Jordan and 98 degrees. Stop playing Hoobastank's The Reason! =X Yeah, it's driving me mad. ~~~ It's nice knowing that my brother done up a collage regarding my mum and i's birthday bash. Go visit my picture blog for more details. Ciao!

Livestyles of the not so rich and famous

2005-10-12T20:49:00.000-07:00

What a day. I woke up at 8.47 partly because of the hammering of god-knows-what's going on down my block. Funny thing that I woke up hurling abuses at the innocent party downstairs. God, I must be meant for hell. Anyway, I caught the live simulcast of The Amazing Race at 9am and yet another of my favourite team got elimated. Gosh, I must halt watching such reality dramas to spare myself the agnoy. ~ I spent the afternoon watching programs after programs; God bless mother nature if i do not turn pouchy. ~~ And the schedule goes on... ~~~ My life must be the boring-est from everyone's. I should consider refraining myself from blogging, I ~~kick ass~~ suck at it.

10 hottest guys (subject to anybody's changes)

2005-10-11T20:50:00.000-07:00

Not according to any range at all, this is my final tabulation for the 10 hottest guy, in my point of view. So read on, and by the way, enjoy the pictures; courtesy of Google.com. 1. Gerald Way 2.Rob Thomas 3.Ricky Martin 4. Enrique Iglesias 5. Duncan James 6. David Schwimmer 7. Chad Michael Murray 8. Utt 9. Adam Levine 10. Brad Pitt This should be all. 10 guys. More; Later!

Nobody wants to be lonely

2005-10-11T12:22:00.000-07:00

A moment of rejoice! The exams are finally o-var!!! Ahh, the excruciating pain has worn off; what a beautiful feeling. Today we kicked off with Home Economics, which was a challenging one, considering I got mixed up with Total Fat and Saturated Fat (which shows how ignorant I was to food labels =P). But desperately enough, I just lumped them together as whole, and plus-ed away. Oh well, that was all I could have done; otherwise I'll be returned with a huge, fat question mark on the question and a exaggerating cross (though it was right of me to deserve it anyway). Next was Art. I chose Double, and drew a pair of shoes for the final piece. It looks really simple and glaring (due to the orange paint I used for the walls), but I am glad that it is all over. Now coming to think of it, we have only spent 5 days on the exams. So you can pretty much say my 'excruciating' was an exaggeration. ~ Ho, ho, ho. Tomorrow and the day after are considered (school) holidays, for us! I am so gratified. I seriously need all the sleep-ins I can get. *squeals in excitement* Right now, at 12.20pm, I still am unable to get over the fact that the exams are over. Though it's not technically over, but heck, at least I do not need to look forward to studying till next year! ~~ Flu bugs, and many more...

Poached eggs; reality or wayang performances?

2005-10-03T22:23:00.000-07:00

Something is pushing me on and dragging me down these days. As much as I want to study, a tiny spark of 'holding back' is lurching deep inside my heart. I do not understand what is bothering me but whatever it is, it is something real personal that is only meant for the ears of my ole faithful diary; or eyes, whatever. Ok, getting back in shape, I am so glad and thankfully for the patience of my parents for allowing me to unwind by going into what every girl desires: Shopping. Oh please, tell me you, as a girl, hate every single bit of shopping. Especially in the heart of Orchard Road. Oh yeah, not westmall, nor Lot 1, but Orchard Road. No people, I do not intend to boast but, how can you stand the temptation?! Moving on; 1 meal and a shopping mall later... I was found somewhere intensively deep in the veins of Orchard Road, sits CK Tangs. Specifically, level 2. Oh yeah. I so found the earrings of my dreams. A gleaming, hooked, hundredpercent customized earring, with a friendly price. Oh gosh, all in the name of love; My mum and I each bought a pair. I am so elatified for getting the earring. Oh praise the god I worship for enabling me to find its way to the counter. *jumpy* threecheers for mum for getting another pair in time to come! I cannot wait. Someone drench me with a pail of water; Otherwise I'll get fried. Well, I'm not the only one getting all the luck this weekend. It seems that all Chad Michael Murray fans have something to rejoice about! He and Sophia Bush are seperated. So as from the source; The New Paper. Could be just a malicious rumour? Or is it for real? Oh well, we'll have to wait and see; Till then, I am placing him back on where he actually belongs: My mental checklist. *Wags eyebrows* *Follows up by a shrill squeal of excitement*

checking for the doneness of your life-cake

2005-09-19T22:33:00.000-07:00

oh jeez, technical problems going on: i am unable to load pictures from my digital camera to my computer. *frowns* anyway, people, real sorry, but he delay has to be put across for today's post due to the author's stupidity for not knowing how to work the camera. heh. heh. so. science homework is not done. don't probe me why, but i'm not touching it no matter what. measles is part of the research. try google-searching that. you'll wish you could just forget about it the moment you see it. people, it's bad. real bad. ok, fine. so that was a little nightmarish, but lo and behold, something is bugging me. the baby photo i saw when google-searching for that. try searching it, using the keyword, then scroll all the way till the second column. see that dolly-baby with the eyes closed? woah. that's one freaky baby gone all wrong. by the way, on the topic, go see this. got to go get down to business and pack my bag for school tomorrow (yipee!). P.S. you know that i was being sarcastic, right?

club wear

2005-09-18T22:42:00.000-07:00

out. out. out. another day out in orchard road. oh boy, what a day. today was a little dry for a day. started off the day finishing my chinese homework and studying for the coming Science test. no news about studying for the end of year, just yet. i must be some super slacker during this period. what a week to shop around when people are studying their asses off at home. sheesh. what happened to my fighting spirit? ah, heck it. all work but no play makes Alyssa a dull person. truly dull. seriously, you would not want to see me in my oh-so dull state. i'll look like some 1000 year old zombie which has gone through a bad hair day. ugh. ok. ok. now for some what-is-in-Alyssa's-shopping-bag:

Handmade clay magnet; bear portraying ballet, with white ballet pumps. Chic.
Handmade clay magnet; personalized with name and cute figurine on magnet.
Handmade clay magnet; ditto, this time with brother's name on it.
Handmade clay magnet; Big Bird style. Appealing.

don't question me as to why my parents purchased so many magnets for me. i am just into gushing-over-arty-stuff mood today. seriously, those clay magnets are fab with a capital 'F'. handmade; as if fresh out from the artist's creation. i must really take my hats off to the artist. despite her disability, her handy-work are so intricate and eye-candish that you could not resist buying it. oh well. so swooning of me to fall for the arts. hours later... i was found in an restaurant in Lucky Plaza, having indonesian food. smashed fried chicken was my meal. rice was it's supporting partner. we ordered drinks, and DARN, if only i could get a picture of the Happy Soda my dad ordred. no camera bring misfortune. argh. anyways, time to wrap up: the night is no longer young for me, and a major home economics test is awaiting me, tomorrow. tomorrow for sure

Long Time No See

2005-09-18T00:59:00.000-07:00

wanzhen, do not murder me when you hear this: i am so hooked on Pussycat Dolls' Don't Cha. Oh well, some songs just remain fresh in your memory for eons. Anyway, went window shopping in Takashimaya yesterday (considering that it is 12midnight now). People, if you want cold, hard evidence as to why i am only window shopping, and not really, seriously shopping for purchasing reasons, dig this: Takashimaya has posh shops which are only meant for credit crankers hardcore shoppers, or as to say, loaded crowds. So girls like me can just look at other girls having fun, and not being able to experience it. Oh jeez, i swore that those Dior handbags i saw through the window was fab-ly crafted and designed to perfection. Chic, as you may say. Hah. So you people are wondering what a girl like me would shop in Takashimaya for absolutely no rational reason at all? No, you got it wrong if you think that i am in for the free sampling of mooncakes. I am not food-minded you know. I was there to support and experience being in a culture like no other. Hehe. It's a 50th celebration for the Singapore Association for the Deaf. They had 5566 to come over (which was from my point of view, big deal) and sing and promote their new album, hao jiu bu jian [Long Time No See; if translated directly from english]. Screaming fans all around me. Ugh. I just cannot bear to withstand such behaviour. By the way, just to inform those 5566 fans that did not get to catch their performance, they did a little dance and signed the whole song in Sign Language (taiwanese style). They did a fantastic hi-kick, but sadly, only 3 of them could make it as the other fourth one was having a filming deal going on back in their hometown. All of them were wearing either yellow or white (i did not notice much about their dressing because i was more concerned about how they entered the scene without being chased by screaming fans half of the time). Coming to think of it, how did you guys get to find out about their performance in Ngee Ann City? *shrugs* All in all, to wrap the whole event up, the food was appealing and good (better than some i have been to, where the food seems so mass-produced; forgotten which one). Ate chicken rice, a slice of pizza [cheezy crunch] and a quart cup of cuppacino (pardon my spelling). Anyway, my main point was to check my mum out (she was volunteering for the games store there) and discreetly getting her gifts while she is oblivious of it. After all, we got for her a tote bag which costed a total of 4 digit numbers, a stuffed animal (which costed yet another 4 digit numbers) and a gift tag (not to worry, this only costed a 1 digit number). All in the name for, Happy Birthday! Personal sneeb-zle poodle. (fyi, this does not mean anything. i am just annoying the heck outta you.)

girls just always wanna have fun

2005-09-10T21:25:00.000-07:00

Had a whole afternoon of fun with the bubbly Wan Zhen, at IMM. Not really the WHOLE afternoon at IMM, it was not much as a shopping hub, so we bought the necessary and went back to her house to bake away. Lunch was satisfying. Curry was on the menu and pieces of yong tao fu were soaking in it (wish the picture was present to illustrate my point). Rice was carbohydrate (and many other carbs. not yet mentioned in my curry) and you can say that pretty much made up my lunch. Bought Snapple (lime green tea) and went over to Daiso for the baking materials: The only setback was that Daiso did not sell much fancy wear for cupcakes, but nonetheless, we managed to find one that was really cute and kiddish fruitti tutti enough to charm the judge. Boy am i elated that i can put my wants behind and carry forward with my needs because i nearly purchased some totally not relevant decorations from Daiso, namely, a door hanger which allows you to write squigly words on it. I swear that it was like love at first sight, but i shot down Cupid Love the moment i realized that i was not me to spend 2 bucks on something that would collect dust (might as well buy some practical, right?). First time in the century of shopping have i ever denied wanting to buy something totally stupid. Anyway, being on cloud nine is over for me. Some part of the back of my mind tells me that school is approaching and the exam fever is getting hotter. Oh boy. *roll eyes*

Prelude

2005-09-09T10:49:00.000-07:00

after one thrashy movie and a late night slumber later, here i am blogging. by the way, why must i feel horrible after being able to enjoy my holidays now? i cleared my homework pile (and practically shoved it aside), shouldn't i be rejoicing now? alas, everytime i finish my homework in time, the holidays just get shorter; just like how i have 3 days left of enjoyment. ugh, homework does drain you. literally. anyways, i just posted the class photo (only girls) in my previous post. sad to say (sorry wan zhen), i am posting another one; this time involving the whole class. many apologizes to those who does not wish to see themselves on my blog, but hey, who's running this blog anyway? Class only. A quart of the picture has been partially multilated and some faces has been covered Sorry kiddos. full picture. no multilated faces, but covered faces are still present. the only difference from this shot and the other is that my maths teacher is around; Miss Tan. wish to see more pictures reagarding my class? visit here, here, and here. sorry if names weren't mentioned during this introduction, but i prefer to keep all of your identities mum (except for wan zhen, which i guess everyone should know by now). so people, remember faces, not names. just so as you know, things don't work both ways.

the side of me that would never show

2005-09-05T17:07:00.000-07:00

Tell something about yourself.

close to a nobody, somewhere far from glamour. yeah, you got that right, it's me.

How long have you been blogging?

may 2005 till now. blame it on the previous blog address.

Why did you start blogging?

my brother partially encouraged me to do so and my fellow friends' blogs gave me the inspiration to blog away...

How many posts have you written to date?

62 and counting. i have poor commitment to my blog these days, school work has been hectic.

Which posts are you most proud of and why?

none. i suck when it comes to more pictures less words sort of sense of humour - lacking.

Who was the first person to comment on your blog – outside of friends/family?
- no one ever did. tag boards are somewhat where comments flow in.

What would you rather have – less visitors but more comments or many visitors but no comments?

many visitors and no comments. i guess it's less crap the better!

Is there something you would like to post about on your blog, but haven't yet?

hmm, not so. i try to keep the personal views about friends and family to myself, and not make things uglier by going public. it's a little over relationship etiquette 101, if you come to think of it.

Where do you get your inspiration from for a blog?

my brother. he always have that cool style of writing that everyone wants to adopt (so as i speak), not like mine, sour and bitter, everything boring.

Do your friends/ family read your blog?

sure. i am open to everyone catching a glance at my blog, just so as you do not get offended by certain issues posted on the site, it's fine with me.

How many blogs are there in your links list?

10 plus. take your time to browse through some of them, especially the link stating my brother's name - his blog has this zany mind of its own.

Which blog do you check out first and why?

my brother (again. =P) because his style of writing is catchy-ier than the others on my list (no offence).

Do you always leave comments at blogs you read?

ever so rarely. i leave the moment i am done with it; unless i am in the mood for commenting, that is.

What do you most like about other blogs?

the blogskins. some have the most fab ones that stand out from the rest - unspeakable. the style of writing (as i have been mentioning). it's far above mine.

What do you most dislike about other blogs?

the background music, it can be a little unbearable at times. especially when it goes in a loop and you cannnot tune it off no matter what. a big turn off when the song picked is horrible. the flashy animations, an overload may just make your blog seem a little too distracting, and loud. messy navigations/unable to even find any, it gives the blogskin creator a bad name, yar?

What single thing would you like to improve about your blog?
- the style of writing. i still have plenty of empty spaces to fill for improvement - plenty.
In a conversation about your blog, how would you like it described?

blogskin? fab. wordings? readable. pictures? rich and fine. all in all? good to go. though it's said and predicted that i can never achieve this even if it takes me a million years - practically uncountable.

Any last words to our dear readers?

hope you do not find this post a pain in the ass reading it. i tried to make it as me as possible - otherwise.

courtesy goes to Wet Noodle for the blog post, otherwise it would be impossible for me to answer these questions. =)

overview: Villa Wellness

2005-09-05T12:25:00.000-07:00

it was shocking and everything dumbfounded on the encore telecast of the first awaited episode of Villa Wellness. the show was lead and hosted by Desiree (Cassie from Heartlanders) and she was everything the 12 contestants wish they were in (obviously they would not pick an oversized host, right? the show's main point is to promote a healthy lifestyle. though i do not understand what watching tv and surfing the internet or using the handphone affects their weight... but we'll get to that later). so everyone was set out to a resort chalet, a place were nature is plentiful and a conducive environment is in their face for a 10 week slimming session. though some may get eliminated along the way. but do ~~not~~ fear, they are well started on a detox programme for 3 days straight, kindly sponsored by Expressions. well, i may say, but not too well. a contestant, namely Anju, has been rejecting (her body is) the pills that everyone was popping and fell for a death trap the moment everyone set out for a mini tour of calories no-no with their friendly and helpful nutritionist. even since that day, she has been throwing out almost everywhere she goes, causing her to moan and groan about missing her son. seriously, if you were there, it's an instant torture. mostly all technology is cut off and no means of calls are supposed to be made out. it's like living in concentration camp or something. just worse. Prequel before the Detox Progamme started anyway, everything was turned around when breakfast was served up the following day. and it was piping hot and delicious one may say (or the stomach). hmm, but something fishy was happening. the sumptuous dinner (real fat ~~killer~~ encourage-er) they had yesterday was simply following up to the next day! impossible. they are here for a slimming session, not a increasing your body fat to the limits. but taadaa, host Desiree appears yet again with an amazing surprise. no breakfast ladies, everything you see on the table, in the bin. what?! hello??? 12 people with an aim to lose weight, not waste food. this is not what you call sacrificing your needs, it called sacrificing the ecosystem. do you all have any idea how many starving children you are able to feed with all those food? and you are banishing it in the trash?! this is not girl bravery, this is simply not making sense. what is this? models do not dump food away in order to refrain themselves from indulging themselves! you are simply teaching the public the very wrong stuff, and you really need to change. and ahem, if you people think that dumping away food and seeing them swimming around helplessly in the trash fun, think twice. you may just be the one starving next time. so the moral of the story is, think twice before airing shows like this. the act of dumping food away is simply outrageous, and i cannot stand to see food being wasted in this manner. people work to put food on that table for christ's sake! exclaimation marks, dear producers, signifies how much hatred i have in store for you, and this is not going to end yet, if you continue carrying out foolish stuff. ugh, you producers are irkingly unbelievable. it's true. P.S. i do not blame the contestants for throwing away the food, you all are simply forced. i understand.

What's your flava?

2005-09-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

i do not!

do you really want to live forever?

2005-09-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

another fab day, in Singapore Town. (the place where i was born and bred, yeah, you got it right.) just as it's only in a part of Singapore Town, somewhere along the road of Kim Seng Road, namely, Zouk. hah! you must be wrecking your brains on how i could get through the Bouncer situated at the front gate and snug my way thru to the club itself. heh heh heh. you'll never get it straight. but, of course, i would not leave you in the dark. instead, people, listen up: they are hosting their Annual (kind of monthly. i heard it was on every 4 months.) Flea market. so duh, if you think along the lines, it's a fully family day outing, and not a barrier for kiddies like me. (sorry if you feel offended by my term 'kiddies', but you have got to admit that we people of below 18 are definitely falling under an underage group - except those that look real mature for their age, you go mature people ;) ) anyway, back to the flea market topic, if you, the audience or fellow readers of my blog, are doubtful of the term 'flea market', it's a place where you can get 2nd hand items. not a place, i repeat, not a place which sells nothing but different breeeds of fleas. just so as you know. unless if there's such a place, please do refer me to it. ;) ok, so we are still back at the flea market topic (if you do feel lost at this post, tag me. i can be a real bubble head while blogging at times. XD ), and this flea market does have a real of a deal. if you get what i am getting to. =P so, smart shoppers, get your bags and savings ready, cause you are going to have a ball of a time finding great bargains at every sharp corner (it really depends which direction you are heading though). be ready to burn a slight hole in your pocket and put up with the pungent cigarette smoke. it may be a little unbearable, but believe me, get over it and concentrate on shop-hopping!!! it even better than paradise over there. especially for youths, listen up and listen well. if you are those brand-conscious and tight shoestrings budget type, this is the place for you. Zara, Roxy, Mango, Adidas, Disney, Nike, Quiksilver, Op, Billabong... you name it, they have it. (if you are patient enough to spend a whole afternoon to do so - shop around i mean.) but be warned, this year's flea market has said to come to an end, and the next predicted and expected one is to come up next year. do not falter, 2nd hand goods awaits you. and if you are fated enough, you may just get to see that long-awaited top you have always been eyeing at that boutique downtown. may the fate be with you. P.S do you wish to be kept informed about flea markets held by them? join their mailing list!

look who's talking now

2005-09-02T21:15:00.000-07:00

my one and only has left for the recycle bin today, and if it's none other than - MSN messenger. it total backfired at me yesterday afternoon which left me astoundingly speechless. and now, i am forced to banish it to the dump. sorry, but you aren't WORKING with me. did this in a pique of anger (trust me, you would not want to mess with me). *chuckles to brush it off* anyway, just so as you know, this is like the final day for the term. and guess what? i found that it ended too early, too sudden. it just seemed like any other weekend break. which is totally not, considering that it is a full week holiday. which means, sleep ins (yay! learning to cut down on it and putting up with the panda eyes =D ), assignments (don't mind me mentioning this), full time coach potato (define coach potato in this situation: solely on the computer) and plenty of mouth action (just so as to keep you informed, this means talking, not some smooching or whatever). just like a bridge over (not yet) troubled water, there's never a time where assignments are banished to the trash, and teachers are well relaxed during the holidays. stress is definitely present and all hardwork (and sweat) is thrown in a tub and well mixed for a week jammed packed with nothing but truly studies. so pucker up people, there'll be a long week ahead. equip yourselves and fight the battle with pride. no regrets; no looking back. boy, it's a long week indeed.

coping with the before, accepting the after

2005-09-01T17:38:00.000-07:00

my current class, only featuring the girls with my maths teacher, Miss Tan. unable to spot me? i am the one standing in between Si Jia and Wan Zhen, behind Rachel. ah, the season for rejoicing and thank yous, teachers' day. isn't it delightful seeing the lightened faces after handing out the gifts to them? especially Miss Ong! she was thanking me for two times straight that i cannot be any happier for picking that gift for her. everything planned was worthwhile, indeed. i made a total swear shatter into a million pieces when i agreed to go over to check out the 'how's now' in my previous school. a little regretful about seeing the past straight in the face; except for Naomi. =) just like ole times, we were set out having lunch and major chats together for hours (don't even get me started on how we walked from school to King Albert Park, then back to a 173 bus stop). memorable and hard to let go. so everyone pretty much remains the same, just the same greetings plus the piercing silence during conversations. i am a little shaken about meeting the former classmates, all glamour minus the flashing lightbulbs. it's almost like culture shock with a capital 'a'. i mean, it's like, everyone has learnt to let go (especially me) and no one were as jumpy enough upon seeing us (ok, so most of the girls were). not that i mind, but it does not give that extra zest for making an effort for going back. anyway, pauses aside, the most voted for 'the most worthwhile moment' was meeting my former form teacher. honestly, i am a little worried about her current health because she does look run down, frail and pale, almost everything stress related. wish she would stay home to recuperate, more than 3 days of her written M.C. all in all, it's all about juggling the past and now, piecing them side to side in a locket and being able to appear hand in hand because who may know in time, i may just learn to appreciate the past more.

catch a glimpse of Singapore Town

2005-08-20T15:42:00.000-07:00

my trip to the Jurong Regional library did not turn out like how i expected it to be. how so?

i have people staring at me like as if i just stepped out from the set, "Encounters Of The Third Kind".
they would give you menacing and dirty looks till you make way for them, regardless who bumped into who first.
some would hurl scoldings over their cell phones (loudly!), in a public area.

people, i know this isn't any of my concern but... HAVE MERCY ON ME. let me make this clear once and for all that i do not come out to be stared at like some person that wore the wrong piece of clothing or simply just because i somehow do not fit in into your heartlanders' uniform. to put it bluntly, i do not understand why you people are so rude. have you all ever heard of something called glances? NOT stares. people do not stare at someone else and make it so obvious that you somehow disapprove of their clothings. you only do that in the Zoo, where you stare into animal enclosures and gaze at how cute the animals are. and don't even get me started on how some people hate body tattoos.

exam road kill

2005-08-19T23:08:00.000-07:00

time to rejoice and pop the champane i have been waiting for, cause... COMMON TEST IS OVER!!! hey, you can't blame me for exaggerating, 'cause i have been waiting for this day to happen. this day where i do not have to yank out of my hair and pace around the house with cold, clammy hands, wondering what is the science equation for neutralization or acids or alkali. technical stuff just ain't the thing for me. it's best to just let it go. now that i can mentally block it out of my mind, time to start on this weekend's homework: Animal Farm, 6 questions regarding chapter 4. oh wow. i expected homework anyway. it's high time that weekends are to be properly used for solely studying and not wandering around in shopping malls, window shopping, and drooling over the fab dress from that summer collection or something. but coming to think of it, i am going out tomorrow (MAYBE *looks glum*) and studying may just be the last thing on my mind, for now. you can just say that i passed literature, but for the rest of the subjects, it's cross-your-fingers time. i cannot guarantee that there would be a smiling (gleaming one) teacher that walks in our class next week (except Mdm Chen, cause she knows our results). maybe it'll be History. WAIT, home economics is on monday, that means... the proteins test. dammit. i should have prepared for that one. oh well, come what may. i would still love home economics till my dying day. trust me, i adore cooking. except when the gas cooker goes berserk on me. otherwise, everything is fine. yay. cupcakes. =d *clears throat* back to the main point. in fact, i was just done with it. time to kick back and take a breather. no use recalling the exam questions and frowning to each dumb answer i've given, after all, it's over and done. why bother? do i hear any bets on me failing a subject for this common test? i am glad to receive any. =)

befriending the enemy's enemy spells trouble

2005-08-18T14:19:00.000-07:00

news headlines: Girl found to be overly engrossed in the exams: dies in sleep oh right. is this the life i am going to live? i am becoming over paranoid in this time's Common Test, and i can't put my finger on what's causing it. firstly, my chinese paper kind of sucks, and i can't guarantee that Mdm Khong is going to love me very much. literature? better. so much better. and may i mark that this is the first time i am saying this. first time in the history of the first year in Hillgrove did i exprience the literature exam being the lower ranked than chinese. First time this is unbelievably unbelievable. oh well. and thank GOD that i brought the right umbrella this time. it totally rained like cockroaches and mices (wan zhen, you would get this joke.) on my way home. blame it on the weatherman.

spoiled umbrellas and stubborn winds

2005-08-17T17:28:00.000-07:00

you can that i officially given up on studying. yes, ladies and gentlemen, i surrender. there is absolutely no way, yeah, you heard it right, no way, that i am going back to waking up early just specially studying for the exams because it is proven that i am allergic to it. please note from the above source given, that when i carried out the following actions, i was practically feeling and walking around the house like a zombie, a very sleepy and depressed one. even endlessly gorging of ice cream did not help me from relieving the mild stress caused by studying too much. yes, proper time management is needed and not cramming everything, practically all the subjects needed for revising, just before the exams. but let's say in my situation, i am not that kind of student that simply remembers everything at the tip of my fingers before the exam, considering if i revised earlier than usual. so of course, just revising before the exam would aid in my memory of the topics covered by the respective teachers and tested. anyway, moving on. today is the start of the exam blues. there goes another chance of scoring, considering the horribly questions set for the english paper that totally would totally make my overall results dip. history was worser. needless to say, i suck in history. look at my face. do i have 'i ADORE history' scribbled all over my face? no. so for section B, Mr Yeo, i have no guarantee that you'll love the answer given. note to you: i forbid you to cringe while going through it. MCQ is kinda luke warm for me, so i may score for it. and guess what? it does not count as much as section B. ouch. that has GOT TO hurt. out with the mass produced/cheap foldable umbrellas and in with the expensive/durable ones. reason why? note to self: never put up with umbrella that look suspiciously flimsy. on my way home this afternoon, i tried out my new, light but 'free gift' foldable umbrella. opening it, i was happy with the umbrella, but the structure was kind of weird in a sense. looking the nice pink shade the umbrella has, i was contented with it. suddenly, some strong wind came and totally flipped my umbrella shady thingy to the reverse side. now, that sucks. the rain was pouring like hamsters and fishes, and the umbrella actually bailed on me. placing my homework folder on a bench, i struggled to contain myself and fix the umbrella back to its original position, hoping on hope that no one saw my wrestling with the flimsy structure of the umbrella. until was it seems like a million stares, i gathered what was left of the umbrella (don't worry, this is just an expression, you do not think that i really fixed the umbrella till it turned out as bits, don't you?) and walked on, cursing and swearing on how unbelievable the blardy umbrella could be. and when i was walking through the carpark again, it went beserk and i repeated what i did at similiar situation mentioned. another freaking note to self, listen up: do not be disturbed by the weight of the previous umbrella you used to bring along to school last time, at least the structure is more trustworthy. *roll eyes*

all that jazz

2005-08-14T10:17:00.000-07:00

Currently studying: Home Economics, Module 4: Proteins (for tomorrow's class test) you can say that this is the first time that i am forcefully pushing myself to study for the coming test. strange, but true. exams never used to scare me, but now it does. the awful truth about exams it that facing the fear about looking at all the questions stated in the exam paper and not knowing a single answer to it. so here i am trying to absorb as much 'Animal Farm' as i can. don't bother, some may say, but i believe that through hardwork and perseverance, i can achieve a certain degree of result and not solely based on luck alone. plan for the future and not regret later. ok, don't tell me that was me talking. what is into me?! it seemed that i was high on drugs just talking about all that technical shit. *GASP* i am hallucinating: first stage of studying too much.

are we there yet?

2005-08-12T14:24:00.000-07:00

quote of the day: "run for it or get run over by it" ouch. Common Test week is just round the weekends. i am so hoping that my study material does not betray me, because i really need to catch up if whatever i am slacking on. especially History, Chinese and Science. my maths mock test isn't looking up too. 25/40 seems like a pretty 'i-did-not-bother-to-study' mark. totally. so from today onwards, i'll be spending my free times looking up on maths formulas, history, complicated science chemical mixtures and anything chinese. and i am going to take another shot of reading Animal Farm (ALL 10 chapters) and a fast skimming through this Novel in Poems so as to fluff up my english language. 'propaganda', here i come. P.S i am going to die if i don't get a quick nap in the afternoon *long yawn* P.P.S studying can wait.

The fool who ripped his her pants

2005-08-11T22:55:00.000-07:00

When i ripped my pants i just ~~merely~~ flunked my maths test. I thought I had everyone on my side i so thought the force was with me. But I went and blew it all skyhigh major crap-up during exam. And now she won't even spare me a passing glance the paper was collected and i won't see it till Miss Tan marks it... *sob* And just because I ripped my pants failure. When Big Larry came around to put him down Yong Liang told me that my first two answers for the first two questions was wrong. Spongebob turned into a clown it was obvious that Wei Jie knew it, so he pointed out the mistakes i made in question 3. And no girls ever want to dance with a fool who went and rip his pants so much for scoring for the previous one and race downhill for this one. letdown. I know I should not mope around I shouldn't curse i went around telling everyone that i was going to flunk the test badly. But the pain feel so much worse as least telling someone would make me feel better rather than keeping silent. So why land up with no one is much less fun knife, cuts like a knife... Than a burn in a sun well, at least i tried. =) Or sand in the buns i should be glad that i tried attempting the questions. Now I learnt a lesson I won't soon forget i am SO going to study for the coming Common Test. So listen and you won't regret i am listening. Be true to yourself don't miss the chance of course. handle every opportunity with care. And you won't end up like the fool who ripped his pants study harder so that i would buck up for the Common Test I'm on a highway to hell...

marking the end of day

2005-08-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

the holiday spirit is about to die off, sooner or later. what a pity, i say. why not extend the holidays till the end of this week? oh wait. i remembered, the exam period is next week. *gasps* oh swell, another sprint to accomplish. don't bother wishing me luck. luck never works for me anyway. *slums down and pouts unhappily* gosh. watched tong xin yuan (Portrait Of Home) back then at 7, and they totally just conveyed the wrong message to the public: what is with Daqiu - played by Adrian Pang - doing by being deaf and refusing to talk? like my mum was mentioning, it's not like he could not talk, why are there conveying to people that deaf people are dumb too? first, he refuses to talk. second, he goes around with a notepad, writing messages to family members without opening his mouth. third, why is he being an asshole to his wedded wife and an guardian angel to the housekeeper? sheesh. why cause a ruckus by letting your wedded wife know, behind her back, that you secretly like the housekeeper? i have never seen someone which does not have the guts to handle such a situation. and by the way, feeling guilty by not loving her (your wedded wife) does not change the fact that you can deny your feelings for the housekeeper and go on lying to her (ditto). that's just a lame excuse running away from reality. Tong Xin Yuan (Portrait Of Home) Report RE: the script Dear Whosoever that wrote the script, I am honored to feedback about your show. Please take into the consideration about what you about to read aloud to yourself, and please make an effort to tear the script into shreds and burn it to smithereens. Can you make do with the Triangle romances? It is making me regurgitate my dinner while watching it. You may advice me to stop viewing your program, but that is not the point. The point is media-educating the public in completely all the wrong ways. Tattoos for the underworld gangs? I beg to differ. You may also want to know very well that tattoo is a sort of body art, and it does not matter who or what background has it - they all are still considered a body art. How about explaining the scripted love messages? Do you not think it is getting a little too corny? In fact, it is far from the heart. Much as I love watching romance-related TV serials, this is an exaggerated then planned 'I love you from the bottom of my heart'. I hope you do look up the notes regarding script writing again. Yours is getting a little too rusty. Respectfully, Your Conscience

zombie fest

2005-08-10T11:39:00.000-07:00

[Photo courtesy of Google.com] screenshot of zombies from film (right) now, don't you get my point? what is up with the movies these days? the genre which seems to take over center-stage is practically flooding the market with its movies. why do i say so? horror flicks. are they the evergreen movies that everyone like? no. so why brainwash us with the idea that our life is creepy and filled with man-eating zombies? and did i mention the zombie films from last year to this year? what is up with those zombies? whenever i see these films, all i want to do sit there and take a long stare at the posters. i mean, the main reason to create these films is for the scare factor. but if these similiar films are on the rise, how can we be taunted by the idea of zombies, when we already know how the storyline is going to be? even i can narrate the whole show to you with my eyes closed. Land Of The Dead? bad idea. having zombies carrying weapons isn't going to change the fact that it's different from other zombie flicks. honestly, they are just another bunch of creepy figures that has manifested the entire town - which is real deserted, because almost everyone has been turned into man-eating zombies - and have nothing better to do than to go around gnawing people's head off or scaring people whenever they make a sharp turn. even naming zombie flick seems like a breeze these days. Resident Evil, 28 Days Later, Dawn Of The Dead, and now Land Of The Dead. i guess George A. Romero is just trying to create sequels after sequels of zombies that went depressed because they got unemployed then later went berserk and started chasing after their bosses or something. not that it's an offence creating such a storyline, but don't you think these films are too closely packed together that it causes one to get sick of such films? i suggest, draft up a better, fresher script before requesting for a crew to cast in the show next time. after all, who can tell the difference whether the zombies used in this film has been recycled from the previous one? hope you consider it.

just another wallpaper on the wall

2005-08-09T11:59:00.000-07:00

to think i was so eager to catch this year's National Day celebration. in the end, it did not even matter. i just did not feel 'in the spirit' after the parade. it was as if it was just another celebration we celebrate everyday. and Sze Ming, i saw you in the parade. were you the girl in the front row in some part of Act 1? and were you wearing the greenish costume with the flower (orchid?) decorated at the back? i guess you were part of the flora theme, right? and there was something different about this parade from the other years: more fireworks. *grunts* (ME: whyyy?!?!) the future is ours to make. that is our motto for this year. oh yeah, something to point out. why were some spectators waving their handphones around?! yep, with the backlight on! (ME: if i am not wrong...) it was as if it was some torch or something. is it?!?! wow. this year's National Day is really unique. and what's with the song 'Sing Your Wishes'?! yi er san si wu liu qi ba jiu shi. (numerals in chinese) gosh! and the rest of the song continued in singing of numerals in different languages. i was like, am i supposed to comment on this? seriously, it was as if not much effort was put in composing the song. except that Reach Out For The Skies was fairly good. then i was thinking, if Taufik and Rui En was singing the English version, why not Sylvester and Rui En sing the Chinese version, rather than Rui En singing it by herself? all in all, the parade was just 20/100 and did i mention the choir? (ME: you would never believe it.) they totally recycled the costume. since 2003. can you believe it?!?! *gasp* hope someone noticed it. Shooting Stars Report RE: the performance Dear Whosoever this letter is supposed to go to, I am glad to feedback about your show, and I hope to continue doing so till I see the rise in your viewership, regarding the show. I see that the show title is poorly designed and the style of the show seems strangely familiar - as if it was partially lifted off from some tv series i caught sometime ago. Then again, I could not bring myself to remember the TV series, so this issue is excused. Another problem to note: I cannot bring myself to remember the scene where Sylvester was asked for his name and he was grudgingly replying to it while 'admiring' the floor. One query: is this the sort of character play you would like to convey to the public? Sad, I must say, to see this happening. So I have seen Unidentified Flying Objects, but I have never seen something quite like that, flying - at me. Singlish, I must say, is something that must be dearly avoided at all times, at any point of time. No one must ever speak such a language, especially on National TV. But why do I see Olinda setting such an example? I know it is part of the script, and it is her character to portray the role of a bo chup attitude. But, not to this extend? I have seen many a TV series to comment on this, and I must bring out that you need not use Singlish. Trying watching TV serials such as One Tree Hill or The O.C for once, maybe their format may help you in re-writing of the scripts for the episodes to come. Hope you can consider this point and look into the matter. So as I wish watching a down-to-earth drama, I do not wish seeing an overexaggerated one either. Your portraying of the Idols' life may be a little too overbearing and overwhelming, and some may not be what they really are, in reality. So this may not be a reality programme, but it is too a programme thousands of viewers are going to tune in to, and if you continue to draft up a script of such in future, I do hope you carefully consider the above mentioned. If in any case, you do feel confused about the suggestions provided, we can arrange an appointment to discuss the issues regarding the show. I would gladly elaborate more on the issues concerning it. Do make the necessary reply once this mail is received. I am looking forward to more feedbacks after every episode, and more lunch appointments. Yours sincerely, Me doh. this blog post was like altered 2 times. gosh. freaking blogger just blanked out a moment ago. *screams* lessons learnt and experiences gained. (ME: this was what i typed before blogger went berserk on me. hope it makes sense to you though.) the National Day celebrations is soon coming to an end. as they say, Everything that has a Begining, Has an End. so we shall mourn at the departure of the Nation's Birthday as another fab year has passed. *sniffs* 11.59pm. a minute before black out. --silence--

panda eyes but still wide awake - strange

2005-08-09T00:18:00.000-07:00

i am so not asleep yet. what's wrong with me? the living room tv is on and there is some chinese series blasting thru my speakers. why can't i bear to sleep? i am so going to knock myself out. wish me luck, Alyssa - (don't listen to her, she's some weirdo.) I HEARD THAT!

Birthday wish

2005-08-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Singapore! you are so officially 40.

filled with admiration and courage

2005-08-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

some of my friends may not know it, but i really do respect those hearing, visually or handicapped people. in my eyes, they are the most courageous people and i highly respect them more than anyone else. it's just so pitiful that they do not get to live the life we get to. just like how i encountered a man which was walking past the bus stop. he was limping and walking at the same time, having difficulties walking faster or at the same speed with any other normal people like us. it does make sense when we are given a second thought before saying, "i'm so sick of life that i prefer to be dead" because somewhere, somehow, there is someone which is handicapped that looks up on us, and just wish they could be in our place instead. so, why wear away life when you are lucky to lead a normal one? in fact, i don't see why it's so funny seeing them in this condition. what if you were in their shoes? would you learn to appreciate them more? because i think some people just gloat at others misery without thinking. and i am so not being sarcastic right now. while channel-flipping, i stumbled upon Nickelodeon's The Brothers Garcia. and such a luck, it featured Tammy, a girl who was hearing impaired and a new student in the school. having nasty classmates is bad enough to handle, but when her ear-aids was running low of batteries, it made a sharp whistling noise which caught the attention of one really cocky classmate of hers. the whistling noise was then made a joke in the class, and to make things worse, the student buddy she was assigned to (and was then her best friend) made fun of the whistling noise and said it was some sort of dog whistle. getting into the fun, he led the class in some wolf cries which caused a mighty uproar. Tammy, later adjusting her ear-aids, found the class wolf crying. puzzled, she asked the cocky student and she replied, they laughing at you, silly. and it turned out that it was started by the student buddy! gosh. slightly embarrassed, but with some courage in her, she left the class in a huff, leaving the class bursting in laughter. regreting what he done, he rushed out to apologize to Tammy, but she was already fumming. so his mum knew about it, and suggested for him to try being Tammy for a day, and experience how is it like being in her shoes. of course, he did what his mum told him and filled his ears with earplugs the next day, only to find it difficult to move about in the school or even lip-read the teacher when she is talking - due to the constant covering of her mouth. later in the lesson, he was demanded to remove the earplugs and was relieved to let sound fill his ears - it was practically music. so from this episode: we can learn never to make fun of people for what they are, but instead, appreciate them for who and what they are. not looking down at people that are deprived from certain things in life. gosh. how i feel better getting it off my chest and sharing it to others. i really needed it. i am so going to do this again. XD 1 minutes to the Nation's Birthday. i'll be blogging at 12midnight.

the aftermath

2005-08-08T18:34:00.000-07:00

just got major scolding from parents because of the pizza hut commotion, wrong move. the attempt of trying to explain to them has failed and i was left with lectures after lectures. DOH. i am so not going to eat in Pizza Hut ever again unless for some celebration. so Wan Zhen, if you want to dine there again, i am so sorry to say that i have self-barred myself from stepping into Pizza Hut - it's cursed. thank god the battle is over. i have officially came out unscathed. i am hoping thru hope after hope this may never happen again - so looking at the bright side, i learnt from eating at posh restaurants, a killer. so next time i wish to visit one, either i bring along my parents or someone with a credit card. i would gladly invite you to dine with me (someone with a credit card, i mean). maybe i should have ordered the salad, or forgo the root beer. hmm. whatever it is, the bad omen has passed, and i learnt my lesson. never shall i repeat it, and i do not blame anyone in this event. this was truly due to my foolishness and poor planning. and i swear to arrest the situation without any freaking out involved. it can costs someone's life.

show me the meaning of being broke

2005-08-08T15:45:00.000-07:00

national day eve. what a day to celebrate and be joyful. time to shake off your socks, do a hi-jump and start screaming at the top of your voice because... SCHOOL'S OUT! yep. this is the time of the year. where holidays are prolonged, and so is the homework. so i can look forward to lengthy sleep-ins and refusing to finish my homework unless i have hit my daily dose of computer madness. this is so the life i want to live. but of course, everything must come to an end, so yet again, thursday is officially back to school day for everyone - including the teachers. ***END of National Day Message*** you can say that the day started off as a pretty gloomy one and plenty of umbrellas were seen hovering near the traffic junction. traffic was smooth sailling (and a killer too). anyway, what is up with me reporting about the weather and traffic?! let's just fast-forward to the time when i was in school, shall we? so as i was saying, the parade square was slightly damp - cause there was a heavy downpour in the early part of the morning - so, i proceeded to the classroom, which was quite a distance. after huffing and puffing plenty, i finally made it to the peak - what a relief! clutching my bag tightly, as if there was a wad of notes that was worth a million or something, i settled down at the familiar seat, my own seat. duh. so, as you can see, this passage is getting a little draggy and composition-ish, so i am so not going thru the nitty gitty things, and yet again bring forward the more interesting stuff we i did. we got our national day souvenirs - from the school - which consists of a stapler, a box of stapler refills, a bag of paper clips and a hole puncher. the most valuable souvenir we got was this Today In History book which totally has almost all of our past events compiled in it. all 365 days! so it was some articles that really touched my heart, and it was this student which was Visually Handicapped, and he actually contributed an article in it! and in the same article, an hearing impaired student illustrated the article. that was something to like, cry about. (in a touched manner, of course.) so after leafing thru the book, all of us had to contribute in making a banner/poster with all our birthday wishes for Singapore. so mine was 'I wish Singapore was free of terrorism', with a 'X)' at the end. all in all, we wrapped up the day with a cultural performance, sing-a-along session and a Hillgrove wave. i can tell you, the Malay dance item was the most kick-ass one - honestly speaking. they had a group of silat members to perform some silat movements and a song to go along with it. the most likeable time in the performance was the song! the song was just so mixed and enchanting. what an experience! gosh. i wish there are more days to come that involve performances of such. after the performance, which was like, 9.58am, me and wan zhen strolled home but only to experience a heavy drizzle mid-way. so we ran all the way to 7-eleven and spent, erm, (i am not too sure how much her oreos cost) $1.20 for a small sized Big Glup. after our purchase, we strolled-walked home under the shade for our individual folable umbrellas. so she crashed at my house for a while - till 11plus - then we headed towards bukit batok's Pizza Hut. now this is where the fun begins. now, we shall start with closely looking at the above receipt. note the prices that are pointed to. these were the prices that started the freak-out between me and wan zhen (OK, so it's mostly me). ok, maybe for the benfit for those who find the print very squinty, the Balance Due stated is exactly $22.98. so initially, i happily ordered a lasagna and a root beer, uncertain what lies ahead in the... BILL. so as the lasagne came, wan zhen offered hers to me (cause we both ordered the dish) and i digged in. later, the bill came and we were mightily shocked by the price stated: $22.98!!! that's a mightily lot to pay to. gosh. then suddenly, in a moment of panic, we dug our pockets for money and discovered we are so short for a dollar. *screams* then we thought of ways and means to raise the money to pay Pizza Hut. the first thought was Wan Zhen going home to get more money, then i told her it was too time-wasting to do so. the second one was begging the other customers for loose change (which i doubt they would spare). the third one was pleading them to lower the price of the bill (which is impossible in Singapore to do so) -which was totally my idea. dumb, right? so we thought why not ask a friend that is residing nearby westmall to hellp us foot the bill? which was of course, quite another useless one because i could think of anyone. SHIT. we were at our wits' end. suddenly, a idea popped into my mind. who was the next person i could get to? duh. of course it's my brother. so i made the call and it was successful. he'll be on his way. during that period, i swore the next table was maybe gloating at our misery or whatever, but maybe they weren't. i was just being to sensitive over the issue anyway. so it was only when we decided to re-calculate the amount we had with us, there was another shock: we actually had enough money. fuck. $13.80 + $9.40 = $23.20 right? i calculated as $13 + $9 = $21. see what a wave of panic can do to me? no wonder we did not have enough money. all thanks to me. the big maths genius, NOT. so this experience shows i can never venture out to work as a cashier or something. cause if i ever take up such a job, i bet i can turn a $5 set meal to a $6.50 one - without proper calculations, that is. i am SUCH a rip off. after this, i need to take a load off and laugh till my tummy ache. literally. DOH! *cringes*

altered pictures

2005-08-08T13:24:00.000-07:00

i think Zouk should consider hiring them as a Live band. attention all users of Zouk, DO NOT be alarmed by this poster. it's just some altered poster done up by me in my own free time (so you can say i had nothing better to do during that period). so don't be lame by asking me whether there is such a band in Singapore or beyond.

the 3 times altered blog post

2005-08-07T21:02:00.000-07:00

*evil laughter* someone just died and made me crazy about TV series. check this out, One Tree Hill season 2 is due for release sometime this year. everybody SCREAM!!! gosh, does it look tempting. (picture courtesy of Amazon.com) and you can rub it in my face that this is somehow the first time i am posting a picture up in my blog post - which i usually don't. (jeez, how lame can my blog be?) looking at season 2, it is said that someone is leaving them and not continuing to star in season 3. *GASP* so currently, i am depending on my good buddy - Adlin - to share with me about the latest stuffy about One Tree Hill. oh god, how i wish i could stay up every thursday night to catch it - but DUH, sleeping is way more important than tv. unless that particular episode is worth losing an hour's sleep for. but it seems that Channel 5 is censoring certain scenes in the show due to the subject matter. why so? it is simply because the particular scene features some sex-related topic. then why the late airing?! it totally does not make sense because as it is, it is already being aired so late!!! jeez. now i am stuck with the not-being-able-know-the-ending. oh well, if that means buying the box set, so be it! i'll be glad to pay for it. *flicks a glance* anyways, anyhoos, how evil can i be? not studying for the upcoming common test?! hmph. what a ripped off promise i made. all for making a mental swear that i'll be studying for it this week and next. now here i am only finishing the chinese workbook (part of homework) for tomorrow - due date. is it so that i can pull the exam off without studying? no freaking way. considering how nasty my knowledge about history is, i can tell you, i'll starting freaking out half-way thru the exam. (most probably shredding up the exam paper every 5 minutes during the exam and demanding for a fresh sheet by giving a lame excuse such as "oh, my imaginary dog munched up my paper by accident" or taking the shreds of paper and throwing it around later telling the examiner that you wish to experience snow in Singapore - for once.) oh yeah! did i mention how i am dying to get my hands on Spongebob Squarepants season 1 & 2 box sets? i just missed the first few front episodes for season 1!!! DOH. how i wish Nickelodeon could just rewind to season 1 rather than rehashing season 2 over and over again - god, it's killing me softly with its rehashing. and darn, how his biggest fanatic missed the front episodes of season 1. anyways, these are some blooper shots i found while skimmed through the search for Spongebob Squarepants images on Google.com: it's high time i should consider making a tribute to Spongebob by creating birthday hats for my pet's birthday and tying it atop my pet hamster's head. this strangely reminds me of the Thaipusam festival - the indian devotees would penetrate their skins with sharp needles. so instead of sharp needles, these "devotees" are being tied down by strings from the Spongebob float balloon. no wonder they look so glum. (note: do you realize how imtimidating the Spongebob float balloon is?) how i wish i could inflate my eyes like him. what a creepy santa. presents, anyone? why, i did not know Kraft has macaroni and cheese in a box with Spongebob's face imprinted on it. new instalment? ok. i think i'll continue on my next post. it seems that blogger is lagging on me for posting up too many pictures. darn.

post-shock

2005-08-06T15:43:00.000-07:00

to hell with the anger management course. what i need is a good ole self-confidence course. something that can boost my confidence overnight - like having the guts to order a glass of water from a waiter in a posh restaurant. just take the dance lessons i took this afternoon - major disaster. you would totally catch me dead doing the dance moves half-heartedly. how i suck in hip-hop, i cannot be hip! from my point of view, i do not have enough spunk to carry off that 'yo, wazzup?' look during hip-hop lessons. in fact, i look like some constipated by-stander doing crunches and hi-jumps that totally do not fit my whole outlook. maybe i'm just that type of dress-in-style-and-strut-my-stuff-downtown sorta girl. the only thing i can pull off is being sarcastic, not having to twirl around and pose. yep, everytime i appear for lessons, all i can think of is the students attending the lessons giggling behind my back at how awful my dance moves are - and i feel so trampled on. but in reality, as i look around, everyone is pre-occupying themselves by concentrating on the steps given out by the instructor. yet i cannot understand why i am feeling this way. sometimes, i just admire those actors and actresses that has the courage to be zany and flamboyant without the care of what others think about them. so you can say i am not much of a a risktaker. in fact, i am some social coward that is afraid of what's outside my room. all i want to do is be idealistic and not work for it, i admit i am like that. i am just that kind of person that waits for prince charming at the top of a tall tower without having finding ways and means or even sending out an sos to one to rescue me - because all i can think is that life is nothing but an excerpt from a fairy tale, not something you'll have to work half your life for it. as similiar as to how i think cookies would be served up in a silver patter and not worrying what or who has made the cookies so that i could savour it. how am i selfish. so you can too say i am confessing all my bad points on my blog, and not in some diary which is tucked safely in drawer. (now that i came to think of it.) mwahaha. jump into the life of Alyssa-strange.

pick up and leave

2005-08-05T22:28:00.000-07:00

wow. 3 posts in a day. i really have lots of crap to share i guess. =P ever got hit so hard by reality that you are left stunned? or stumped? i did. and the feeling was similiar to someone digging a hole in your heart because the current feeling then was so deep and dark that you cannot imagine if a day like such would pass by one day. frightening. my mind was in a whirlwind then, and just countless of questions kept popping into my mind as the thoughts of the event actually becoming true just cuts like a knife. what a weird mixture of feelings i was caught up with. i cannot promise if i can live up to such a day. i'm busy crossing my fingers now.

branded with a price tag

2005-08-05T22:20:00.000-07:00

the harsh reality of life. some have all the luck while others don't. by why? we came into this life, pure - simple. now what has life made us into? something we aren't really are when humans first surfaced on earth. technically speaking, we are asking too much out of life. we tend to get idealistic or some may get pressurized over something, but don't you think we should put a stop to it? human nature is real complicated. as i said, we have started having peace on earth, but suddenly, violence and weapons of (mass) destructions are introduced in our daily life, causing us harm in one way or another. and i can say there's no stop to it because we can never agree to each other, or sit down to have a talk without agruing or debating or quarreling over something that can be easily be resolved or straightened out. why so? it just boils down to the main reason: asking too much out of something. just like how you purchase a bowl of noodles, $2.50 right? let's say we ask more out of it, would it still be $2.50? of course not. the price would escalate which means, if we apply it on real life situations - whenever we ask for more, think. don't you think there's a price to pay? it's true, one might say, that we should rush through life and there is no such reason for stopping to observe the birds and the bees. but what if you stopped instead? would the birds and bees change the way you live? or would it ruin your rush? it is indeed time-consuming looking in the finer details in life, but don't you think it's more worthwhile this way? i mean, reading a book, and knowing the storyline is not going to help. the main point is, maybe we will understand the story further if we analyze the finer prints in the story and the message it is trying to convey to us. techinally speaking, how long do we get to live? why torture yourself and refrain yourself from seeing the story behind your existence? just the other day, my mum explained why she was so relaxed with our studies. she was mentioning on how we have able arms and legs and the need not to push us further as to how lucky we are to lead a life without having setbacks. i could not agree more. not that i wanted the oppotunity to slack, but what she said was just so logical and meaningful that i was subconsiously nodding my head throughout the conversation. the statement was so simple, yet full of understanding of life is all about. it really set me thinking till now. inventions. some may come in handy, while others don't. as i was finishing my dinner, i wondered, is there any other inventions that may be useful to our current life - right now? (ok, so we exclude vaccines that prevents us from deadly diseases.) in fact, we have almost every invention we that can think of. objects to contain food? bowls. plates. objects to shade us from the rain? umbrella. shelter. foldable umbrella. coming to think of it, how much convenient can we get? we have countless of inventions that have lessened our loads and so much more. shouldn't we step up and do something without the work of machines? i know that machines play an important role in our life, and i know that certain things cannot be done just relying on our own bare hands, but, inventors have made our life easier a million times, why are we still complaining about things being so not convenient? and how much can we invent things? the only thing that needs to be discovered and invented are vaccines that may be useful to us in the near future. so, we have manpower to man our houses, like housekeepers, pest busters, plumbers, etc. do we have to go to the extend till we invent robots to man over counters and businesses? then humans would be so helpless and complacent. and don't even mention it, i am feeling stumped thinking of inventions to invent in our life. and i must admit that i fall into the aobve mentioned topics such as, rushing through time and being the nagging one when it comes to convenience. i am that type of person that just wants to eat life from the palm of my hands - lazy and demanding. i am idealistic and always wanting things my way without working for it. but now, my character has improved slightly, not that it has changed me or anything, but i can tell you, i am still SO idealistic. like i said, if you can't afford a car; you can't afford me. that's just me being me.

time in a bottle

2005-08-05T17:48:00.000-07:00

ah. the familiar 5 6 7 8 filled the room yesterday. what the relief it is over. the turns are killing! seriously, it's like some war-zone over there yesterday. you have people rolling on the smooth wood waxed floor endlessly, for like, 5 times. how my elbows ache after all that intensive training. never mind, perseverance is everything. totally. hmm. animal farm is running through my mind now, as i struggle to remember the seven commandments. ok, a quick run:

Any animal that goes upon two legs are enemies.
Whatever that goes upon two legs, or has wings, is a friend.
No animal shall drink alcohol.
No animal shall sleep in a bed.
No animal shall wear clothes.
No animal shall kill other animals.
All animals are equal.

(C)copyrighted. George Orwell's Animal Farm. (some of the word may be slightly altered, but nonetheless, it still has the same meaning.) these are the 7 commandments i must drill into my head before the week after next because the common test is around the corner. so let me see, Squealer is the propaganda machine in animal farm. OK. THAT'S IT. why am i doing homework revisions on blog posts?! queer. funny of me to do such things in broad daylight. what a rare occasion. DOH. anyways, just want to extend my apologizes to Giovanna, as i flared up in her face this morning. seriously, i did not know what overcame me, but whatever it was, it made me became real mean and cranky. as if everything or everyone pissed me off. i am in need of anger management courses. sign me up on one now. ok, back to reality; my horoscope speculated that i'll be having luck this day, check this out: Luck has nothing - well, almost nothing - to do with it. Thanks to your perseverance and hard work, you're about to see a long-cherished dream of yours come true right before your eyes. and i swear its not totally lying. in fact, i scored for my maths test!!! i was so elated. i mean, i always wanted to be one of the top scorers for maths in the first class - it was so my dream of achieving it. now that i have waited for ages for it, i finally got to have the cake, and eat it! (is that the right phrase?) ok. i shall not continue. i am starting to be gleam and gloat plenty. shut up alyssa, SHUT UP. ahem. *clears throat* so~ i'm out. toodle doo! X)

The Raven

2005-08-01T22:50:00.000-07:00

poem hopping yet again! yes, folks, i know this time, the poem may be a bit dry, but it's nonetheless worth it to sit down with an warm cup of tea in tucked in between your palms as you read every single line of The Raven.

The Raven Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore - While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door - " 'Tis some vister," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door - Only this and nothing more" Ah, distintly I remember it was in the blank December, And each seperate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore - For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore - Nameless here for evermore. And the silken, sad, uncertain rustling of each purple curtain Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating " 'Tis some visiter entreating entrance at my chamber door - Some late visiter entreating entrance at my chamber door; - This it is and nothing more." Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer, "Sir," said I, "or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore; But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping, And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door, That I scarce was sure I heard you" - here I opened wide the door; - Darkness there and nothing more. Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing, Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before; But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token, And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, "Lenore?" This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, "Lenore!" Merely this and nothing more. Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning, Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before. "Surely," said I, "surely that is something at my window lattice; Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore - Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; - 'Tis the wind and nothing more!" Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter, In there stepped a stately Raven of the saintly days of yore; Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he; But, with mein of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door - Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door - Perched, and sat, and nothing more. Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling, By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore, "Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven, Ghastly grim and ancient Raven wandering from the Nightly shore - Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!" Quoth the Raven "Nevermore." Much as I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly. Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore; For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door - Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door, With such name as "Nevermore." But the Raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour. Nothing farther then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered - Till I scarcely more than muttered "Other friends have flown before - On the morrow he will leave me, as my Hopes have flown before." Then the bird said "Nevermore." Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken, "Doubtless," said I, "what it utters is its only stock and store Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore - Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore Of 'Never - nevermore.' " But the Raven still beguiling my sad fancy into smiling, Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door; Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore - What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore Meant in croaking "Nevermore." This I sat engaging in guessing, but no syllable expressing To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core; This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o'er, But whose velvet-violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o'er, She shall press, ah, nevermore! Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer Swung by seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor. "Wretch," I cried, "thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he hath sent thee Respite - respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore; Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!" Quoth the Raven "Nevermore." "Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! - Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore, Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted - On this home by Horror haunted - tell me truly, I implore - Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!" Quoth the Raven "Nevermore." "Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore - Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn, It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore - Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore." Quoth the Raven "Nevermore." "Be that word our sign of parting, bird of fiend!" I shrieked, upstarting - "Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore! Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken! Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door! Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!" Quoth the Raven "Nevermore." And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door; And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming, And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor; And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor Shall be lifted - nevermore! [1844 - 1849]

oh. another one of Edgar Allan Poe's works. stunning.

old bedtime stories and creepy boogeymen

2005-08-01T15:28:00.000-07:00

R.L Stine once said, "The scariest place on Earth is your mind". well, you can very much say i agree with him. i mean, come on, you pretty much rely on the brain to function, right? otherwise how does the term "brain dead" and "mind over matter" come about? (ok. so maybe "mind over matter" is not used for this situation, but it tells you that the brain actually "commands" you what to think something that isn't actually that harmful or frightening after all.) the brain stores most of the vital information needed in our life, so when you're "brain dead", erm, you know what i mean. ghosts. spirits. i am sure all of you are familiar with this terms. (otherwise go look up in the dictionary.) it's something unmentionable and unexplainable our minds can ever imagine. but, how true, IS true? technically speaking, how do we even know how they look like? seriously, we are in doubt. all we have exprienced are all by a word of mouth. who knows who has twisted the story and made it sound more spooky? and what about that old saying that when dogs bark in the middle of the night, they are some unseen forces around your house? hey, you got to admit that that's so not true. my neighbours just happened to walk past our door, so the dogs sensed that there was some footsteps, and so they barked. they are trained to sniff out strangers, REMEMBER? so there's a thin line between reality and fantasy. and i can tell you, those who believe in the unmentionables, are living in Fantasy.

The Road Not Taken

2005-07-31T19:19:00.000-07:00

so here i am, poem hopping. the sudden verge of poetry reading overwhelmed me on my sudden trip to the library, so i borrowed a collection of Classic Verses and plan on reading it during my free time. upon randomly flipping through the pages, i stumbled upon a page which brings backs familiar memories:

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And one be traveller, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less travelled by,

And that has made all the difference.

- Robert Frost

wow, the wonder of poems. writing in one meaning, yet mean another. oh, will i ever live to see my name in a book of such? let's hope. X)

blogging and beyond

2005-07-31T11:23:00.000-07:00

gone were the good ole days where forbidden secrets were kept in diaries, tucked somewhere safe and unknown. but then again, blogging gives writing diary entries a whole new meaning. why? here are the top five reasons to explain why:

blogging is meaning having to type, so you won't have to worry about your pen running low of ink.
while writing, you have a tennacy of making several errors, so that requires canceling, which makes your diary entry really crappy and scribbly. with typing, all you need is a simple press of a 'backspace' and your errors would simply be forgotten. neat.
we all know that phrase, "colour the world with colours". so therefore, we tend to apply it on blogging. changing the colours seem like a whiz while typing, but when it comes to varying colours while writing, the problem lies with scrambling around to find colour pens. now that's, annoying.
pictures. downloading and uploading them on your blog post is like a breeze, BUT just illustrating on your diary entry seems like hell. just printing, or getting the pictures from a magazine and scrambling around for a glue stick to apply on the unused side and waiting for it to dry before closing your diary takes like, 4 steps?! note the difference.
font style. so easy yet so difficult to apply on writing. cursive? you name it, blogging can do it all, just like snapping your fingers.

welcome to a whole new era of blogging.

is it so difficult to explain the truth?

2005-07-30T11:49:00.000-07:00

such a muddle. i did not mention in my previous blog post about something really, really joyful. *drum roll* my class got in for the teacher's day performance thingy!!! they auditioned and finally got the green light to perform on that memorable day. isn't it a shocker? it's even MORE of a shocker when some of the group members conplained about the group name. fantastic. it was initially fantastic 19, but it fell through due to a large number of us dropping out. so. they picked out the 19, only remaining the fantastic. which i can tell you, some people aren't to happy about. but hey, who wanted to decide it? and who actually came to us personally and willing to suggest a name? or even bother to bother when we raised the attention about the group name to those participating? who even cared? and now you're telling me that you're not happy about it?! very funny. i suggest you go ram your head in the nearest wall available. seriously, it was a big ruckus. we told them time and time again that no one decided it for us, but they just kept going on and on about it. like some tape recorder that's faulty. just that it's spitting out something that's making my blood boil. till i was so angry i shouted: "but no one even wanted to suggest the bloody name!" yes. that's me. so the moral of the story is, "never piss a cranky woman, otherwise the consequences are huge".

sugarcandy mountain

2005-07-29T20:41:00.000-07:00

YES! YES! finally! the time to blog!!! ok. so i am overreacting. but hey, who can blame a poor girl for trying to be zany? anyways, these days has been hectic (ok, so i have not seen MORE of life yet, but let's assume that i am looking into the current phase of life I am living in now). homework has been flooding me these days AND of course, the reason why i took such a unearthly hours to complete my work is that, i was busy enjoying myself online while ignoring my homework. (SORT OF ignoring. don't let me be misunderstood.) so i hereby swear: i would only go online only when needed. otherwise it's not necessary to pass time going online, enjoying, and not finishing my homework in time. end of swearing. hey, i am serious. i did not even go online today. heh heh heh. by the way, i stepped on someone's foot today. and guess what? that person was pissed. sorta. not to THAT extend till he fought back or something, but his actions were unbearable. how would you like if someone gave you the impression that they're foot is so precious, and not to be trodden upon? and that your foot is so huge that it targeted ONLY they're species of feet? it's like, erm, reality check? please define 'accidently' in this situation. oh please, spare me the agony, you would not want me to flare up at you considering the cranky days i am having currently. and i can tell you, you would so NOT want to mess with me. (please be reminded that the author was merely exaggerating. it's not a threat.) "i am... so... freaking... pissed." i am SO over this phrase.

like you disappeared somewhere

2005-07-24T11:27:00.000-07:00

mm. talk about yesterday's Fun Day. nothing much. not much special like the past 2 years. and did i mention they had this annoying speaker which goes off every like, 5 seconds? to me, it was more of a showcase to the public on how our school is than for the students to enjoy its events. and from the moment i entered the school and walk around with my friends, it was like, a blast from the past experience. it's just like, suddenly i did not think it was such a good idea to re-visit the good ole days. the days i have been missing. it's like, i have suddenly moved on or something. i just don't feel that attachment to the school, anymore. so, after walking around for what it seems like hours, a whole group of us crashed at Suzanna's house till 1plus. but, tragedy stuck us not to long from then that made me feel rather soddy. but the weird thing was, i hardly spoke to any of my friends. it's like, i naturally moved on like how everyone did, and suddenly, i am stuck with silent conversations with anyone else. i just feel like, whatever i say, it must be coming out lame. otherwise. and by the way, please read my tagboard to be kept inform about how i intend on removing the tagboard with immediate effect. don't think i won't live up to it, wan zhen. cause you can say what you want but it won't change my mind.

murky, cold and downtrodden

2005-07-22T14:04:00.000-07:00

ahhh! Miss Teo is actually our... relief teacher. so now, we're stuck with mouths ajar and constant thoughts of who our next (permanent) history teacher would be. boohoo. sad to see her leave, but i am wishing her all the best for further studies! (hope i got this part correct, right?) had english oral. a rough start though. i kept saying "stuff"!!! no way. she would so minus my marks for not speaking formally. hey, that's how i speak. it's to help me from lightening up, so that i would not feel tense. stuff, haha, stuff. listening to Save Me now - currently clearing my thoughts. so, today is Racial Harmony. the long awaited day has come!!! X) the day to rub it in to teachers on how they look in their costumes. heh. heh. but overall, the teachers' dressing was much much nicer than mine. i can assure you. except... we got a major scolding from Mdm Khong today. bad start. well, i could understand how she was feeling at that moment - pretty intense. i was at the back like, being all freaked out and stuff cause she walked in kind of happily right till she... flared up. so, the rest, you can pretty much guess what's next: no slacking and more studying. ahhh. jump into the life of a teenage student. what a catchphrase. overall? the day was fab and i managed to pull it off by not looking like some weirdo. kudos to myself. a pat on the back. thank GOD the boys did not comment. phew. teachers i want to point out that looked particularly fab in their costumes: Mdm Chen Miss Tan (maths teacher) Miss Toh Miss Chew Miss Chung Mrs Poh Mdm Khong Mr Chua Miss Tan Mr Teo but of course, the teacher who has the most nicest costume, and has took the extra mile to doll her/hiself is... Mdm Chen. deffinitely, how can i not mention this? she did look nice in the Indian Traditional costume, with a sari wrapped around her, accompanied with earings and bangles. what a compliment. and rest assured, those teachers that i mentioned under the list, were not ranked. oh well, back to my homework. got to follow the catchphrase moral. or whatever it is called. =P

a day without a sun is like a night without a moon

2005-07-20T22:43:00.000-07:00

using my dad's laptop now and it's kinda lagging. =P ok. changed my blogskin due to the real squinty font from my previous blogskin, making the posts a real braintwister reading it. sorry folks! anyways, i had a weird dream last night and it was real spooky cause the dream involved me. seriously. Clue #1: it was exactly 1.43am. Clue #2: my parents were in bed, sleeping. Clue #3: my brother was sleeping. Dream: i looked in the mirror and saw blood on my forehead. touched forehead and it was really blood. clueless about what caused it but i went to sleep without wiping it off. this was what my mum told me: Clue #1: it was only at 2.30am did my dad come to the bedroom to sleep, so it not possible that i saw him asleep (in bed)at 1.43am. Clue #2: my brother was still up at 1.43am. Conclusion: i was sleeping and all of that was just a dream, honestly speaking. so right... my dreams ARE weird. once, i had someone creeping up to me and screaming in my ear real loudly. freaky. ok. so i seriously need to shut up, i am starting to crap. =P toodle doo~

saddening truths

2005-07-18T21:20:00.000-07:00

listening to Some Lovin' by Kristine W. vs. Murk. i am sooo HOOKED on it!!!! don't you just adore club beats? so, the workload is back on full force today, yet again. and i am so screwed due to the horrid "speech" i gave during the conversation part for the chinese oral. the teacher had to prompt me so many times!!! you should have seen the blank look on my face. you'll so faint if you were the teacher in place. i have full confidence for my english oral because i know i can piece words together better in english than chinese. weird, but true. ahhh. being english educated has its advantages, heh heh. aww. just packed by bag and guess what? it's heavy again. wish me luck. XD so i screwed up my chinese passage. i read suo yi as yin wei. nervous? totally. i was like, talking in pieces. if you know what i mean. i was just looking all around when i was answering the questions she asked me for the conversation oral part. maybe it was how she scolded the pupils that was making a din that made me nervous? but i highly doubt so. it's chinese that make me nervous. heh. anyways, she is not that fierce as i thought. hah! that teaches me NEVER to judge a book simply by its cover. cause it's always turns out wrong. at least she laughed jokingly, otherwise i'll be sitting there, rooted to my seat, feeling the aura of nervous-ness surrounding me. thank GOD she lightened up. thank YOU. seriously, i first thought that Mdm Khong was real fierce, but after taking her lessons, i find her less fierce, and a total different teacher what others may describe her. ahhh. the beauty of being more open-minded. ok. what does the above mentioned situation got to do with being open-minded? oh well. me and my crapping.

too late to turn back now

2005-07-16T17:17:00.000-07:00

[past] omg. Miss Teo tagged me. hi Miss Teo!!! X) anyways, the chinese statement i typed out yesterday turned out as gibberish instead. it's like, i took eons to write that, and it turned out to be a whole badge of symbols. jeez. but, if your computer allows you to read it, then all my efforts did not go to waste. gazing out of the window, the direct opposite block is dotted with the National flag. wow, just with a twinkle of an eye, it's National Day already. as soon as we know, we'll be celebrating the Nation's Countdown soon. 2005 seems like a pretty short year to me. anyways, anyhoos, i was so busy these days till i had to stop blogging for a while. so to make up for it, i am going to make this post an extra long one. (maybe, depending on how much happened today.) ok. nothing much happened today. [present] yawns. felt so un-motivated to go for dance lessons today. previously, my alarm was set at 9, but i turned it off and went back to sleep till 10.05 plus. can't i sleep in for a day?! i badly need to sleep for longer hours. even it takes missing school. (but of course, that can never happen. i would not even dare to go against the school rules. the consequences is HUGE.) currently doing my homework now, but i chose to fill in a blog post first. =P sighs. how much i miss primary school, where everything was much more 'free & easy', not till now. quite hectic i must say. i can't even bear to think how my life is going to be like next time i go on to working. one word: screwed. still trying to adapt to secondary life, so you won't be surprised if i fall face flat and remain at the same position, not bothering to stand up - cause i'm that kinda girl. well, secondary school life may be the best years of your life, but it is like some ongoing battle where who is the ultimate survivor after all. but needless to say, most probably i'll be stumbling half way thru. BUT that shows i'm trying to make the best out of what i have. though i don't have much time left... so. i'll survive. aha! got the new Harry Potter book. Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince. though. my mum bought it for her own reading pleasure. but apparently, i am MORE into The Series of Unfortunate Events than Harry Potter. i just found Harry Potter too, chim? uh. so-so barhs. maybe i should try reading the first book again. yet again, maybe not. argh. i'll see whether i am in the mood for it in the first place. ks. signing off from here. homework is waiting to be done. toodle doo~

history test

2005-07-14T20:18:00.000-07:00

i got 17 1/2 for history test. aww. but, kudos to Lina for hanging on and getting FULL marks for history test! keep up the good work!!! =D

cuts like a knife

2005-07-14T20:00:00.000-07:00

there's something that Mdm Khong said that made me think: "your parents paid your school fees so that you can come to school to study, not to refill your water bottles." hmm. she made a point. but. does our level even have a water cooler??? WHERE?! i have been finding it for ages!!! *jumps* ok. the drilling over here has started again. i got a major shock. evil. they drilled AND hammered at the same time, isn't it annoying?! fools. aha! red light word. i am not supposed to say that. oops. anyways, so as to NOT sway away from the topic... we have been given a 128 conversation questions to consider for chinese oral. wow. 128. that's erm... a pretty big number if you ask me. but, for the good of mankind, i'll read every single one of them, just in case they appear in the exams. *beams* sighs. bad news. which one do you wish to hear first? fine. may it be the first one then. 1. Mrs Poh will not be the teacher-in-charge for Modern Dance. Miss Leong would replace her.(but why?!?! *frowns*) 2. Our dance instructor - Miss Neo(h) - is pregnant. so, for the time being, she would only come on certain lessons. (DOH.) no wonder Mdm Khong mentioned this: 人, 往往就是这样, 不懂得珍惜既有的东西，等到失去的时候才觉得可惜。 ok. this is the english translation: we tend to abuse what we have now and only regret after we have lost it. so yeah, we are supposed to write a experience or thought as to what we think about the above mentioned statement. oh swell. tomorrow is school day. last day of the week. YIPEE! friday~ -appealing to tomorrow's workload- hope there's not too much holiday assignments tomorrow, so that i can finish up the home economics project and history homework. =) toodle doo`

may you never wake up from a midsummer's dream

2005-07-13T22:41:00.000-07:00

let's say, i fucked things up yesterday - totally. all pique, no reasoning. just shouting and walking away, feeling pissed and stuff. don't wanna elaborate further, just to make the long story short. heh. THANK GOD i can finally blog!!! these two days were very hectic for me. so, PHEW. what a relief. what a nice feeling to sit down in front of the computer and blog after 2 days after fighting against time. aww. the common test is coming, major freak. next monday is english oral, i wonder how is it going to go, considering how difficult the picture oral is. doh. please let the examiner be mr teo or mdm sarah. just spare me the agnoy and appoint them as the examiners, otherwise the glares from other teachers just sets me to nervous overdrive. oh yeah. the history test. to be or not to be? NOT. why is "life is all about giving second chances" swirling around my head? clueless. someone please tell me there's no school tomorrow.

coffee stains marked my departure

2005-07-10T00:10:00.000-07:00

so so so so sorry if the wordings are a bit too teeny weeny to read. try reading as much as you can though. i chose this blogskin cause i found the creature very amusing... =P please gimme some feedback as to how am i suppose to improve on my blog, ok? honest ones. ok, blogging late into the night isn't the thing for me, but i just had a sudden pang. oh well. all for shunning it. guess it's too late to tun back on what i said... why do i keep thinking of getting homework done???seriously, i stayed up till 1am plus to finish most of my work. (considering my chinese work is STILL left undone, and it's Sunday already...) JEEZ. tomorrow is back-to-school day. OH GREAT. why does time have to pass us by so quickly?! SLOW DOWN!!! CHILL. what's the rush?! oh well. if time can't be stopped, neither can i. so, after pinning this post, i am back to work, wish me luck... till then. i am so performing on Teacher's Day. but there is no guarantee that we can pass the auditions smoothly, so i'm crossing my fingers till the date... so. don't give up. ok. i am yawning and that means less crapping and get myself to bed. so, wrapping things up for the night: toodle doo~ _standing next to you is more of a torture than pure affection_

something hideous that can never be concealed

2005-07-07T20:43:00.000-07:00

so, this is my life: two months and a week later... in the music room, for modern dance. ok. i feel like sleeping. seriously, i was yawning in class the whole time, despite the hearty breakfast i had in the morning. and after recess, me and adlin actually crossed paths with Mrs Yeow and the Moe officials (we were just directly opposite them.), and my heart just like, lurched. i was like, oh my god. could this be my 13th day? but they were deeply engrossed in Mrs Yeow's tour around the school, so they were not aware who was walking just directly opposite them. sighs. i am staying up till 11 today. and... OH MY GOSH. there is literature tomorrow!!!!!! i need to pack my bag, badly. just in case i leave out anything. so, chat later! P.S do i always have to overreact like that? P.P.S ignore me. i am mentally challenged, somehow. P.P.P.S you did not take me seriously, did you?

Dedicated to Terry Fox

2005-07-06T21:49:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh. i was doing a research on Terry Fox, and i stumbled upon this: Terry Fox was born in Winnipeg, Manitoba, and raised in Port Coquitlam, British Columbia, a community near Vancouver on Canada's West Coast. He was an active teenager and was often found involved in sports and games when he was diagnosed with osteogenic sarcoma (bone cancer) at a young age of 18 and was forced to amputate his right leg just 15 centimetres above the knee in 1977. In the hospital, he was greatly overwhelmed by the suffering of the cancer patients (many of them were young children), so he decided to run across Canada to raise money for cancer research. He called the journey, "Marathon of Hope" Throughout his run, donations were generous, and he managed to raise a certain amount of money. However, there was a shortcoming. He had to stop running due to the cancer that has now appeared in his lungs. The entire national was stunned and saddened. He passed away on June 28, 1981 at a mere age of 22. Despite the death of Terry Fox, people remembered him as a hero, and continued to organize such runs and even named it after him, so as follows: The Terry Fox Run. To date, more than $360 million has been raised worldwide for cancer research in Terry's name through the annual Terry Fox Run, held across Canada and around the world. Credits goes to: [www.terryfoxrun.org] for providing the above mentioned information. sometimes, it's saddening to know events like this are happening around the world? shouldn't we learn to cherish our life more? in fact, we should halt talking about death because some people in the world actually yearn to live. it's too very inspiring to know such a person with so much perservance can last for 5 years after he knew about his cancer, and yet did his very best to raise funds for cancer research, despite the possibility of cancer spreading to other parts of the body. don't you think, we should really learn from him? be courageous and strong, and no matter what has caused a fall in your life, brush it off, stand up walk again. because everything that fails, will become a success one day, only if you try.

being a fool for a minute, is better than being a fool forever

2005-07-06T20:26:00.000-07:00

ok. the harsh reality really sank in when my chinese teacher pointed out our bad points. she added that she really respected those students with no chinese background, and yet can score well. well, yeah. so it really put my brain juices to overdrive. it made me think, yes. i SHOULD work hard, no matter what. after all, life is full of challenges, isn't this something we go through everyday? but still, the saying goes: all work and no play makes john a very dull boy. so. playing time is still essential. aha. just like how i stayed back for a Mind Mapping course provided by the school. OH YEAH. the Moe is coming tomorrow. i mean, the people. oh gosh. (why am i freaking???) *crossing fingers so as to hope nothing crops up tomorrow* and yeah. i just found out something that runs in my blood. (don't worry. it's not some weird disease i am carrying. so CHILL. it's just some expressive term.) i have like, some 6th sense thingy. OK. maybe you don't call it a 6th sense. it sounds waay too creepy. hmm. how should i put it... it's what some people call as a bad feeling? a few examples. sometimes i just "feel" that a certain is going to happen, and it really comes true. it's not some dream, nor a fantasy, but it just keeps bugging you till you really experience it. you just have that strong sense that it is seriously going to come true, but of course, not entirely. just take this incident for example: i was having my breakfast when i had a feeling that Wan Zhen and Rachel was going to wait for me at the school's front porch later, when i have reached school, and that my dad would be driving in the school compound. (so to put it technically, Wan Zhen and Rachel would be able to see my dad, driving in his company's van.) so as usual - after breakfast - me and my dad left the house and he drove me to school, like planned. just as this time, there was a slight jam on the road to my school. so my dad decided to drop my off the Lianhua zebra crossing and let me walk the remaining distance by myself. as i waved him goodbye and walked to the side gate, my dad managed to catch up with me along the way and saw me off before he drove off. true enough, Wan Zhen and Rachel was waiting for me at the front porch. JUST THAT my dad did not drive me in. so, what if my dad actually drove me in? Wan Zhen and Rachel would have seen me in my dad's company van, and so on so forth - you can make up the rest. things would have been so different. hmm. seriously, I SWEAR that this whole thing is real. i am not lying whatsoever, nor did i extract this from a site or book. this really really happened for REAL. but of course. it's up to you to believe it whether it's fact or fiction, everyone thinks differently. anyways, anyhoos, i have to continue with my research, have to go. =D P.S i may or may not blog tomorrow, don't keep your hopes up. =) P.P.S if i don't, please don't kill me. P.P.P.S i mean it.

i'll hide u away from the world you rejected

2005-07-05T20:27:00.000-07:00

ok, seriously i must sit down - calmly - and have a blog session. the problem is that i don't blog as often as i used to - as you can see the drastic change. fear not people, it's not you, it's me. a few reasons as to why i shun blogging these days:

some comments are better left unsaid - it's best to keep it neutral.
laziness.
after writing for like, half the page, i decided it's boring and from there, i naturally lose my motivation.
everyday is school day (excluding weekends of course!) so deffinately, i lose interest in doing anything else but solely homework. homework is draining enough.
other commitments - like shopping, yadaa yadaa...
my hands refuse to cooperate with my keyboard. (*shrugs* what can i do?)
typing is not my thing for the day.
i have better things to do.
my computer lags, which of course, sucks.
the internet just goes berserk and just refuse to connect.

so, see? how mentally challenged it is to come to blog? anyway, life for me these days are pretty dry. so there is practically nothing much to say. except. oh hurra. school has started. everyone rejoice. *throws confetti grudgingly* and of course, just had a long weekend, then school started all over again today. and remedial lessons too. oh well. oh hoo. national day is coming. red shirts, here i come!!! (don't laugh, but seriously, i wore nothing but red & white last year, it was like, some fetish for me - at that period!) went shopping. just as you want to know what i bought... A denim skirt. An Adidas shoe. A neoprint (with mum). ok. i am bloody lame. oh well. oh hoo. anyways, go to my bloggie filled with pictures. i filled my blog with neoprints. hope you take a visit! ciao~ P.S i finally got my Hide U song!!!!!!!! P.P.S *beams* P.P.P.S seriously, i am so happy i could swoon. X)

fantasies are made of dreams

2005-06-28T16:52:00.000-07:00

school has started. things have changed, so has our english teacher. our canteen drink stall vendor is reduced to selling packet, can and bottled drinks now - due to the loss of many cups. (which i think it's pretty fair, in a way.) Mr Teo is now our new english teacher. (what happened to Mdm Sarah??? why can't she teach us??? *yanks out hair in frustration*) today, he asked what fruit represented us. so i thought of pear. (don't ask me why.) the following is what happened: Mr Teo: Alyssa. *class turns silent* Me: *stands up* Pear. Because the shape is very unique. *turned face away from classmates due to stupid fruit answer given* *mixed laughters by classmates and whispers* Mr Teo: Hmm. That's good. A pear is very shape-ly, that's true. Ok. You can still down. *sits down and think why i chose pear in the first place* hahas! it's a good laugh anyways. though i think i should have chose grapefruit...

fear is just an illusion behind closed doors

2005-06-16T14:51:00.000-07:00

going for dance lessons later, so i was just thinking of dropping a post in the afternoon. Sadly, there isn't much to report on, except the book review i am still struggling to finish. the animal farm one. althought there are like, 118 pages, the word count is like, thousands! every page, the words are so tiny, and difficult to focus on. i have to even force myself to read that book. thank god i'm in chapter 7 now, otherwise i'll die if i had like, 10 more chapters to go. (obviously i am exaggerating.) so, yeah. taking a break now. hmm. ok, call this freaky or whatever, but i have been seeing or hearing my name whenever i go. on the radio, in a website - but of course, they are not me. there was this time when i visited a jesse mccartney fan site, and the web master was named alyssa! exact spelling. but the one dedicated to over the radio, i am not sure whether the name tallies. glad to know that my name is known. sort of. ha. oh well. this concludes my blog post, so... catch you on the flip side! `She will be Loved________ [[the demented`age old]]

hardcover books in a paperback disguise

2005-06-11T21:11:00.000-07:00

Ok. Rob Thomas is still remembered on MTV. His video 'Lonely No More' is on the number one spot for 4 weeks in a row! That's enough to make me happy. =) Listening to 'She's No You' now. Went for a hip-hop class today, loved it. Gosh. This blog post is some break from reading Animal Farm. That book is pretty heavy stuff, huh? 1 chapter is enough to weigh me down for a day. Gosh. Trying my best to read at least 3 chapters in one sitting - but sadly that isn't happening. Worked at a video rental shop for 3 hours today. Nice... I have never experienced working behind-the-counter till now. Haha! I was nervous to the core. I was panicking whenever I could not get things done. I was close to freaking. But of course, my mum was with me, we were just helping out a friend to tend a shop, so yeah. She worked the cashier and handling of money while I did the recording of disc numbers (did it much later in the hours), some computer stuff and the packing of discs-into-bag. The crowd was plenty during the afternoon, but in the late-afternoon, the crowd sort of tapered down. So yeah, now i know how is it like working the customer service thing (though my mum did the talking and I did the impersonation of a grumpy and silent assistant. =P). Rented a few movies. Plan on having a movie marathon later in the night. Oh well. *long sigh* Better get back to my lovely book, missing it already. ;) `Behind these hazel eyes________ [[Boxer`boogeyman]]

baby cradles and unspeakable truths

2005-06-09T14:43:00.000-07:00

oh well. i guess i am way bored that's why i am found here, blogging. the internet is getting more boring, tv is not showing nice programmes too. hmph. suffering from withdrawal i guess. at meantime, i am reading up on animal farm and finishing my library books. *cringes* i am currently trying to finish my homework too. i have a chinese project too. 2. *double sighs* i need a break. a long break - at least a movie. a break from weird dreams too - serious. i dream of ghosts, weird situations, so on so forth. i just dreamed of a group of friends that can see ghosts. and while this guy was opening a coffin, he was like, torturing himself?! he practically cut off his own fingers. this so surreal. `Give Me A Break_______ i need to chill - seriously. i need to seriously consider on chilling, big time. hmm. finished most of my work. so my workload is more or less done, except for the chinese project. OK. alyssa, stop thinking of work. *[[Chill]]* [[prose`snowball]]

the night turned still after the love has gone

2005-06-05T23:11:00.000-07:00

woke up real early.*yawns* yay! today's the day where i get to have a picnic outing! ok. this sounds real lame, but i have not been picnicking for 3 years, so i deserve another chance to picnic again. or whatever that means. so it was a latin night. the night was filled with non-stop latin music and everyone around us was dancing. hmph. wish i could have stayed longer, i pretty liked the silent, calm and dark night we were in. kind of relaxing. X) ok. jeepers creepers. cool. just hated that show. so haunting. especially the song. at the end of the show. those who have actually watched the show, would have known the last scene where the creature - jeepers creepers - brought the guy's body to this secluded factory (or as you can say abandoned) to remove his eyeballs. UCK. and his eye sockets were empty... *yuck* that's when they played the jeepers creepers song. real real spooky. watching meet joe black now. sighs. when is it ever going to finish... *yawns*=.= [[worries`wombat]]

the after effect

2005-06-05T00:52:00.000-07:00

ok. i can't taste anything. this whole thing happened ONLY when i am at home, while i was having a meal. try explaining that. NOT even coke. forget about coke float either. i can't even taste the drink in the first place! this is SO not happening. ok. i am speaking in captial letters now. i am seriously freaking. NOT to mention mcdonalds fries. fries. yes. i am so talking about fries. mcdonalds. i have seriously just missed a packetful of delicious-fully fries. i could only taste salt. yes. SALT!!! if i had to do that, i could not even spend it on a pack of fries, i'll just rush over to the kitchen, grab a tablespoon, and sprinkle a dash of salt into my mouth. *ahem* i need not, repeat, need not, buy that pack of tempting fries to taste salt. damn! what's wrong with me?! the flu isn't making me better, it's letting me experience a blocked nose - half of the time! oh. correction: MOST of the time - plus a tasteless taste in my mouth. ok. i am so not making sense. well. who can i blame? except my flu!!! *narrow eyes* =.= one day i am so getting back at the flu, cause no way is it going to get the better of me! *glares warily* ok. my eyes are feeling heavy again. damn! it's that flu bug thingy making me tired again. why can't i stay up till unearthly hours today? too bad i can't. guess the tiredness is caused by waking up early today, 7.45am to be exact. have to go to school early to meet mrs poh, cause she chose me as a student helper, which i am very eager to carry out my duty, as i guess i'll get to see the whole class again just before the school holiday truely starts. if you all get my draft. oh well. today is officially the day i can fully manicure my nails. cause, school's out! ok. my nails look hideous. eek! =P *hides behind a wall, and peeking to see whether anyone is coming* oh well, better go settle down, before i doze off blogging mid-way. aha. that'll be so cool then. or not. argh, whatever. hey, said i'll stop blogging by now, ok. will go. catch you guys later? deal. see ya! P.S oh cool! it's 12 midnight. that means it's a june 5... damn. that means that i'll be blogging for the next day... what the hell. sighs. nevermind. doesn't kill to blog into the other day. ooh. 53. have to go, for sure! X) 54. ok. ok. i know. i know. it's way late! ;) P.P.S please be informed that this blog post is revolved around - yesterday. june 4. i just happened to realize it's 12. so, i think i got my point made. or whatever that is. [[superstar`dreams are what we were made of]]

swimming in an ocean all alone

2005-06-03T23:13:00.000-07:00

ok. major tiredness now. stuffed nose. kind of though. why isn't going away?! =.= i expected myself to be ok by today, but NO, i had to feel all tired and stuffy nosed now. sick. just sick. *blink eyes slowly* oh yipee yay yay! went to the bbq held by modern dance. heard that it is held every year... woah. that means that i get to have another one next year!!! X) hahas. i am such a glutton. =P ok, maybe not. i ate less than usual. as to say, i have been eating way - far way - less than usual. maybe the reason behind it is my sickness. it's making me starve myself??? sighs. ok. my eyes are shutting any moment now.... my eyes feel waaay heavy. ooh, ok. i'll try to blog as much about the bbq as i can before my eyes shut. it was fun in a way, cause me and wan zhen hanged out at the senior citizen's fitness corner - but everyone seems to treat it like a playground. especially the children - almost our WHOLE time there. =P but we talked to some seniors though. i hardly made conversation with them - most probably i was speechless, or shy. so we just grabbed some food and hanged around the senior citizen's fitness corner. then came the part where i got a prawn. ok. it's no magical prawn - not to worry. ;) i just chased wan zhen around with it. hahas. she was so afraid of it cause i "severed" the head - and it was already cooked and dead, wan zhen. =.=" the head was hanging though. looked pretty sick to me. =P lol. i had to chase her high and low just to tell her it was a dead prawn and it is fine. and of course, it won't kill. she did not want to eat it though... oh well. the prawn tasted, barbequed? it tasted real bitter, and hardly cooked. except that the shell was redish-pinkish and the meat was cooked to perfection. so i guess i was not used to eating prawns that were bbq-ed. i usually ate them boiled with soup or something, so obviously it tasted much much sweeter and juicier. haahaas. anyway, they was going to be a water bomb fight going on when it was 9 plus, so me and wan zhen left before the water bomb-ing started. don't want to be wet, see? reached home at 10. *yawns* it's late. i better get to bed. goodnight! X) [[cradle`first loves]]

an ongoing battle of love & hate

2005-06-01T14:41:00.000-07:00

"Don't give your heart to anyone But don't forget who's taking you home And in whose arms you are gonna be So darling save the last dance for me" -save the last dance for me by Michael Buble

ok. still feeling feverish. god, please make me feel better by tomorrow. the modern dance bbq is something so important to me, please please please grant me this wish to go to the bbq. sighs. feeling much better already, though the med. just wore off and i am feeling giddy again. anyway, yesterday was the last day of fame for rob thomas cause today's offically the day when some other artist takes over the seat. sighs, artists come and go, don't even know how long they'll last. just watched his video 'lonely no more' for one last time before someone takes forever to request for his video. nevermind. i'll request for his video sometime, like next week? never tried to request videos on mtv most wanted before... ok. i forgot forgot forgot to post on my 'last sunday' post stating that i got a new pair of shades. my mum sharing it with me though. i really really really wanted to get one for myself, but my mum said that i looked too mature in it. sighs. guess i do. shades ain't the thing for me. i almost wanted to get a pinkish one though, but my mum chose a purplish one. hmm. and last sunday, i made a person waay happy. ok, ok. knew you guys will guess that it's my boyfriend? well you're WRONG. it's none other than my.... mum. ok. being so so lame now. i agreed to give up my jesse mccartney's 'beautiful soul' cd in exchange for a rod stewart cd. the one she was dying to have it, yet she found it. well, i can always save up enough money to buy the jesse's mccartney disc on my own, and at the same time, treat her to the movies. well, it's always feels comforting making someone smile. especially my mum. X) sighs... anyway. *roll eyes worriedly* what if mtv viewers have forgotten about rob thomas once he's not the artist of the month? sighs. well, we'll let fate decide for itself. and this better be good. can't wait to catch the repeat of the music video 'how could you ' by mario. almost wanted to buy his album too, but i'm broke - yet again. oh well. i think i better save up next month when school reopens, otherwise i'll be equally broke just like now. can't wait to stay up to watch eye for a guy 2 and nip/tuck too! otherwise it is just so goddamn boring now. OMG. mtv is playing untitled! *rushes to watch it* lonely no more Now it seems to me That you know just what to say Words are only words Can you show me something else Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way Show me how you feel More than ever baby [Chorus:] I don't wanna be lonely no more I don't wanna have to pay for this I don't want to know the lover at my door Is just another heartache on my list I don't wanna be angry no more You know I could never stand for this So when you tell me that you love me know for sure I don't want to be lonely anymore Now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends And you sing to me and it's harmony Girl, what you do to me is everything Make me say anything; just to get you back again Why can we just try [Chorus:] I don't wanna be lonely no more I don't wanna have to pay for this I don't want to know the lover at my door Is just another heartache on my list I don't wanna be angry no more You know I could never stand for this So when you tell me that you love me know for sure I don't want to be lonely anymore What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you [Chorus:] I don't wanna be lonely no more I don't wanna have to pay for this I don't want to know the lover at my door Is just another heartache on my list I don't wanna be angry no more You know I could never stand for this So when you tell me that you love me know for sure I don't want to be lonely anymore I don't wanna be lonely anymore [x3] ok. will post two songs today... this one is: hide U

If you were in my heart, I'd surely not break you
If you were beside me, and my love would take you
I'll keep you in safety, forever protect you
I'll Hide U away from the world you rejected

I'll Hide U
I'll Hide U

Bridge:
Take my hand, show no fear
Look in my eyes, it's perfectly clear
I'll love you, and comfort you
Ask me to tell you what I wanna do
I'll Hide U away from danger

ok. after reading my blog post, i have found out this cute animation i took from a
website. hope you all like it! Drama In The Kitchen


[[how could you`trust]]

bad karma

2005-05-31T21:15:00.000-07:00

"If i had to do it all again,
I wouldn't take away the fame,
Cause i know who made me who i am.
If i had to do it all again,
I've learned so much from my mistakes,
And that's how i know he's watching me..."

-again by faith evans

today i was reeeeal sick. (OK. =.= so i am just exaggerating the point.) but, i still made my way to school. maths olympiad was a killer. it was way tough, i didn't even know how to tackle the questions. sheesh. its like, out of 20 questions, i only knew how to do 1. furthermore, i wasn't in the right mind of doing an exam in the first place. had a fever running, how could i concentrate? and jeez, did i feel woozy. i would have fainted right on the spot and everyone would think i was sleeping. oh well. so yeah, i guessed the other 19 questions, if you know what i mean. its just like, if any number comes to my mind, i'll jot it down as the answer. sheesh, how lame can i be? its like, one in a trillion will my guessed answers be right. sighs. so i almost made my way there, and almost couldnt make my way back. i was feeling all sick, so thank god i could still cross the road without getting hit by a car or a lorry or a truck or some sort of motorcyle. OK. i'm just trying to be a sadist. but my vision was a little giddy though, so it was kinda dangerous for me to go out alone like that. if i knew, i should have just given a MC to the teacher to say i am sick or whatever. ok, maybe if i did that, they would want me to re-sit for the paper some other day, which i dread not to. but i must say it was full attendance today. and its not like i could give some lame excuse in the middle of the exam (which i almost wanted) and say, "i am sick. since i finished the paper, can i go home now?" most probably the teacher will say, "you can't leave the hall until the paper finishes. unless you want to call your parents to come sign you out?" or something along the lines of that. but maybe it won't sound so good. its no longer primary school, so no teachers will sweet talk you or whatever. see, when you cry in primary school, the teacher will take pity in you and comfort you and even ask what's wrong. in secondary school - pah - its waay different. the exact opposite of primary school. ok. sighs, ok. enough crapping. listening to lovesong now. the more i listen to it, i kinda like the song. haahaas. maybe i'll post the lyrics... love song Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am home again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am whole again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am young again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am fun again However far away, I will always love you However long I stay, I will always love you Whatever words I say, I will always love you I will always love you Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am free again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am clean again However far away, I will always love you However long I stay, I will always love you Whatever words I say, I will always love you I will always love you [[racer backs`mathematical]]

leaves rustle beneath my feet

2005-05-29T23:19:00.000-07:00

major freaking just last saturday. my computer just had virus. oh gosh. i was freaking almost the whole day cause i caused it, so yeah, i was dying for the computer to get better. ok. to me, whe the computer has any viruses, especially when its a new one, i'll break out in cold sweat and start pacing around for solutions on how to solve it, well in short - i think that its the end of the world. its just like, time stops right there and then, suddenly i feel short of breath, i mean, hello? we are talking about a new computer here, i cant afford for it to crash! especially when i need plenty of internet research during the holidays. lucky my brother got it up and running in 2 hours flat. thanks! X) ok. sunday. the day i adore cause its my dance day. but todays dance was too fast. did not catch up so, yeah crapped alot during the dance... oh well. did my best, who am i to blame? went shopping. shopped the whole day siah! till 6 plus that is. did not buy anything for myself but at least my mum is happy, which to in turn makes me real happy. hahas. ok. on msn now, cant blog more so... see ya tommorow? no promises though. teehee. *gives a cheezy smile* [[hip hop`latin jazz]]

summertime poppies & lavender periwinkles

2005-05-27T21:28:00.000-07:00

ok. school's out!!! cant believe it. ok. i can. X) what a way to end the last day of school - major lecture. oh well. what can we expect? a nice, warm, goodbye-see-you-again hug? nah. maybe from my best friends, but not from the whole class. just looking forward to 3rd june. (but sadly, i dont even know my way there... help me?) well. enough of brooding, and on to days of endless sleep-ins. hello, sleep-ins, goodbye early morning tortures! and more junk to junk during the holidays. that means, more weight gained! oh well. holidays, just the time to rest and relax and of course, slack. BUT. theres of course, holidays assignment to jam up your holidays, so for the moment, i'm trying to catch a breath before carrying on on my assignments. and just lighten up a little bit guys, dont over pressure yourself to hard, cause thats not what holidays are about! slack a little, sleeping loads and of course take breaks to go shopping. OK. went to causeway with giovanna to take neoprints! yay! X) and i was freaking when the machine kept counting down the time we had left to decorate the neoprint. =P pai sei... =.=" hmmm... the next time i plan on taking neoprints, i must think of what to write on the neoprints beforehand, so i wont freak just like today. hahas! lol. ate mcdonalds. big mac for me, chicken foldover for her. woah. i feel very full liao, cant eat... just the sight of food may just make me puke. =X ok, overexaggerating again... ok. i think i should stop crapping ler, blog blog lat-tar!

[[deja vu`kawaii]]

sum it all up

2005-05-26T21:21:00.000-07:00

" They got a lot of girls who dance in all the videos But i prefer the way you do, the way you move You're more than beautiful andi just wanna let you know That all i ever need is what i've got with you" -she's no you by jesse mccartney

ok. i am lazy to blog every single day, so... here i am blogging an overall week post. hope you guys dont mind. i am tend to getting sick of blogging - kinda. well, happy to know that i passed ALL of my subjects. *pops open the wine cork* ok. i did that out out of sarcasm. i just barely scraped thru literature. ok. maybe it was just some stroke of luck. didnt expect it, no, nope. english, whoa, not looking up? B4. bad sign? well, better buck up. two grades from C6. *widen eyes* chinese: B3. what?! my chinese is better than my english?! GET OUT. *rub eyes to clear view* ok. so its not wrong. i still find it hard to believe though. art. oh well, expected it anyways. C6 sounds like another stroke of luck. guessed my mid year pulled me up, otherwise i could have failed. i failed my CA1 art though. *gasp* yeah. i drew a retarded apple and guess what? i coloured it, and it looked more retarded. guess it didnt help. but taking an art exam is real fun though, as one, i need not study (good news for me.), two, its real fun just painting and colouring and stuff (real fun to get your hands smeared in paint of all assorted colours. X) ) and three, i just like seeing my final piece, it just makes me feel real, well better. much better in fact. its like, all of your feelings are just placed on one drawing - the final piece - and it is a marvel to know that just a single picture can carry so many emotions. ok. enough about the art exam. hmm, what other stuff has happened this week... oh yeah! we are planning on having a class BBQ (suggested by my fellow classmate: charlene) and i am so looking forward to it. hope it goes according to plan, and hope we can get it up and running by tomorrow that is. *cross fingers* and i am so glad to know that there is another BBQ, held by modern dance. woohoo! so looking forward to this one too. omg! X) cant stop smiling. ok. bad news. maths olympiad, 31st may. closing in, 5 days and counting. wish me luck! but most probably i'll freak before i can even reach the examination hall... *kneels down and pray for a miracle* ok. i am just acting all lame again. congrats to carrie underwood who bagged this year's title for American Idol season 4, good luck. =) just wishing bo bice not to feel disheartened as you have rocked the stage yesterday, and you did a good job. this is to american idol: american idol`2005 *[[rawk on]]* [[chocolate kisses`mocha hugs]]

sports day`05

2005-05-20T19:31:00.000-07:00

"I cant sleep at night When you're all on my mind Bobby Womack's on the radio Singing to me 'If you think you're lonely now' Wait a minute This is too deep, too deep I gotta change the station now So I, turn the dial Trying to catch a break Then I hear Babyface 'I only think of you' -We belong together by Mariah Carey

ooh! THE BIG DAY. go, cherokee, go! jia you!!! bought two green bands to support cherokee, yay!!! ok. i am overreacting now. well, we got 1st, 2nd, some even 3rd for some events. yipee! X) ok. but lakota bagged the champion house tittle again. but i am still proud of my house, kks? cherokee rawks. i love my house wor, love it to the fullest. i cant bear to leave it though. took a cab home, shared it with joey & giovanna. and thank god i sprinted home fast enough cause i am dying to bath!!! have not bathed for almost a day. ok. let me see... no homework? uh. book review and cricket magazine. *cringes* ok. gotta go do some work now, see ya! =) P.S we will win next year. when theres a will theres a way. cherokee will win sooner or later. yes. (OK. i am freaking. O.o) [[lakota`mohegan`cherokee`apache]]

kept in the dark

2005-05-19T21:32:00.000-07:00

" Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew So I told you with a smile, it's all about you Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too Said you'd make my life worthwhile, it's all about you"

-all about you by mcfly

ok. art results were so not released today, well, sort of. the teacher said that 3 pupils failed. i dont even know, or even have a clue who it was. she did not want to reveal it though, well, sad. she commented on mine, and i accept it cause yeah, i admit mine was like a little vague, and the background, maybe, it did not bring the whole picture out. i'll work on it next time, though, i hope i passed mine... literature results will be released next week. or so i think. maybe tomorrow? but there are no lessons tomorrow... hmm. just keep me in the dark for literauture. i cant bear to know it, it is, just too... painful. y'know? fail? pass? i expect myself to fail though, i suck in literature. really bad. maybe i'll get 2/100, or even worse, 1/100? ok. i am way too negative. teehee. X) ok ler, i watched eye for a guy 2 and christen got bumped out. aww... he was only like, in the competition for a day and he was the first to impress denise by setting up the picnic basket real simple and neat, but hey, its all up to denise. cant blame her. cause i predict that shan would win the competition. i support radio DJs from perfect 10. and i think he deserves to be the winner.. he just has the, you know, looks. he looks a little mixed blood, and duh, he is mixed. he has this real radio DJ character, and i wish him all the best and rock on. \m/ hope he wins though. next, was nip/tuck. ok, i felt queasy throughout the show. quite graphic cause it was supposed to be a plastic surgery sorta drama, plus romance and drama into it, but all in all, the soundtrack kicked ass and the storyline was nice. total. and i had a nightmarish nightmare that made me wake up at 3.56am in the morning. it was real gory. you people reading this, better get prepared for the gory-fied and please go eat your dinner or meal before reading this cause, its a little queasy and sick. ok, here goes: (my dream had this grainy effect, like those effect you get when you playing Xbox games.) there was this guy holding a knife, and i can remember vividly the 'intials' craved on the knife. it was some square with a pattern in it, like the one similiar to the "charmed" series icon. the blade of the knife was like spooky and it looked like a murderer's weapon. he first pounced on this guy and start slitting his throat. the poor victim was there struggling, desperately shaking him off while he took the victim down and continued slitting his throat. i was there screaming, NO! NO! and i quickly pulled him away from the victim. choking, the victim tried to escape, but at the same time, i lost my grip on the guy and he pounced on the victim yet again, this time, slitting deeper into his throat. i was real scared as i just keep screaming and screaming. it really looked so real, i thought that i was almost trapped in the dream itself. thereafter, the guy managed to severe the victim's head fully. the victim was a guy by the way. the dream was so terrifying, so that was why i had to wake up to put a stop to it. it is just too freakish. sighs, this is the dream i would never forget. NEVER. *glares* P.S spoiler alert! at the final episode of one tree hil season 2, there will be a cliffhanger. cliffhanger: a character from the show may not be coming back for the next season. fans, start catching season 2! [[the night world`tree hill]]

almost here

2005-05-18T16:15:00.000-07:00

"Empty spaces fill me up with holes Distant faces with no place left to go" -incomplete by backstreet boys

OMG. there is a american idol: season 4 - the showstoppers cd, out in stores soon!!! yay! maybe i'll buy it. or maybe not. or whatever. *scratches head* ok... constantine maroulis sings "my funny valentine" in the cd. for AMI today, they each sang 3 songs. bo sang: dont let the sun go down, in a dream & (i dont get no) satisfaction. carrie sang: crying, making love out of nothing at all, man i feel like a woman. vonzell sang: i'll never love this way again, chain of fools, on the radio. competition is tough between the 3 of them. i dont even know who is getting out tomorrow either... bo did a dangerous stunt and sang a song: in a dream without a band. i mean, without background music. so he did well, yeah. i plan on staying up to watch eye for a guy 2 & nip/tuck season 2. oh boohoo, i should have watched season 1 on channel 5, but they aired it so late at night... darn. well, hoora! cause i am staying up late today. oh cringe, the art results will be unveiled tomorrow. last wishes of good luck? yeah. literature... gosh. i cant bear to see it.. X( [[dancing`ole memories flood my mind]]

keep the dice rolling

2005-05-17T23:13:00.000-07:00

"i tear myself open
i seal myself shut
my weakness is
that i care too much
but scars remind us
that the past is real
i tear myself open
just to feel"

-scars by papa roach

ok. maths, part 2, 32/50. minus a mark again. out of honesty. but the question was supposed to be like, 3 marks, but i earned 2 marks cause she gave me 2 method marks, so i was only needed to minus a mark, rather than 3. careless mistake. sad thing. X'( well, i forgot add that i got 18/30 for chinese listening and that i passed my chinese paper 1. yaahhoo! X) english, 36/60. done quite badly for english though... minus a mark for that too. marking error. guess the summary pulled me down... 7/15 was pretty bad stuff for summary. well, i should buck up for the common test 2 liao, otherwise my english will not be able to pass. mrs poh did not turn up today, guess she's sick bah, hope she gets well soon. =) theres nothing to do today. ok. except for CSI:NY later on aXn. oh yeah, i watched mtv most wanted & TRL. mtv most wanted plays nice music videos on mondays & tuesdays. just monday, they were playing stolen by jay sean and signs by snoop dogg ft. justin timberlake. and today, there was all about you by mcfly, she's no you by jesse mccartney, the way by clay aiken. superman by five for fighting too! X) i hope i pass my english though, it seems that my chinese is doing much than my english. weird. hope i pass science too. ooh, ooh, ooh, i cant wait till next week when we get to watch a movie for geography!!! ok. i am being lame again. cause theres nothing more to teach for geography, so for today's lesson, we learned interesting facts that took place all over the world. and we were even given like, 15 mins of free time to talk crap during lesson time, literally. its exactly how it was like after the PSLE, no studies, except for some subjects. *yawn* gosh, just did 5 over quizzies on friendster, so *yawn* i better take a rest before i doze off right here, so goodnight everyone! [[savour the moment`stinging tears]]

a life to live

2005-05-16T23:10:00.000-07:00

"I'm not sure of what i see, cupid dont fuck with me, are you telling me to see this sign?"

-signs by snoop dogg & justin timberlake

monday, the day i dread. the day where i, and everyone else, have to follow their normal routine, back to school. ok. cant wait to know the results for my mid year, so yeah, i am freaking. chinese is out. 70/100. actually it was supposed to be 71 but, the ole honest me admitted to a wrong marking error and ending minusing a mark. well, no harm done, i still have A2 though. sighs. what else... hmmm. science, mrs poh did not come, so well, no results. on second thought, just keep it from me, i cant bear to see my results for science. god knows how badly i've done for it. maths, i am dying for the results. geography, moment of truth... drum roll please! *drum roll* 75/100. waah hoo! A1 siah! and this is the first time we have 100% passes for geography in 1E1. three cheers! X) so darn happy. i thought i would flunk geography, oh..my..gosh. i cant stop smiling!!! X) hmph! d&t last day ler... so sad. mr tan is such a good teacher. at least he did not scold me for breaking the blade for the saw. it was an accident, people. i did not mean of karate chopping the blade in two. =.= i finished my desktop organizer in a jiffy, so i dont need to stay back!!! woohoo! except that the desktop oraganizer was real simple and i scored like, 70/100 for that. well, at least i got an A2, something better than nothing at all! =) thank god theres entertainment later, desperate houswifes, otherwise i'll be bored to death. oh well. *roll eyes* [[stolen`caught up]]

signs

2005-05-15T18:42:00.000-07:00

"if God is a DJ, then life is a dancefloor..." -God is DJ by Pink

ok. so here i am, back dancing again. this time it is MTV. its just a mixutre of hip hop and stuff, its a great workout and its great fun too. i cant wait for the next lesson!!! X) and i love the song we were dancing too. Signs by snoop dog ft. justin timberlake. nice siah! =P after our dance lesson, we went to 'Zouk' to their flea market, held every, uh, not too sure. its some sort of family outing, so all ages are allowed to enter. ok. this is the first time i get to see 'Zouk' before i am 18. cool. the place is kinda small, the dancefloor especially. the decorations and stuff were eye-catching, and the flea market kicked ass. i loved the stuff they sold there!!! i managed to buy clothes from brands like, OP, Roxy, Billabong, Topshop, Zara, Adidas & Converse. so i was darn happy when i could find these stuff there cause i could not afford these brands no matter what. (ok. i can afford certain brands.) eek! so happy!!! X) ok ler, better go have dinner now, ciao! [[holiday`choco cookies]]

latin jazz

2005-05-14T22:15:00.000-07:00

"keep walking and never turn back, no matter how far you are"

ok. today's the day for the lesson. i decided to go ahead with it cause there is NOTHING to do during the hols. latin jazz, so the beat was way faster than modern. there was mant turns but the choreography was awesome. i liked it all in all, but i cant catch up. X( so me and my mum stayed back a while to watch the street jazz class, and there was too many turns, but it looked real interesting. yeah. but hoora! we are coming back for the MTV dance tomorrow! i cant wait. X) i expect a lot of hip hop though, something similiar to how the artists dance on their music videos. hmm, i wonder what song will it be. hope they choose my favourite song, like lonely no more or something like that. we headed straight to bugis from there and my mum bought an adidas bag. *yawn* gosh, all the dancing is making me real tired, better go, ciao! [[untitled`butterfly kisses]]

friday 13th

2005-05-13T20:35:00.000-07:00

phew! so far, (choi!) nothing bad whatsoever has happened to me. ok. i used to be the main victim for this day, but it turns out that i am a-ok. thank god i did not stay long in school to get scolded or whatsoever, cause that is my accident prone area. so yeah, good luck for this rare rare rare day. at least i stayed outta trouble. this once. well, you bet i am not looking forward to the next one, who knows what will happen? sighs. well, today is the final paper (finally!) for the mid-year. art. something to be joyful about. cause its something that i need not study for or stress about. ok, i admit i was peeved doing the preparation works, but at least i had some motivation in me to drive me on, who knows what will happen if i leave it to last minute? i'll freak. badly. so bad most probably i'll be on the verge of dying. so i drew a spider for the final work. it sucked, cause needless to say, my art is far from leonardo da vinci, *clears throat* duh. *stares bug-eyed* so i was to create some sunset effect on the background, but i ended up painting too much of the red, med for the orange, and little for the yellow, so it turned out like some coloured background thingy. the web was pretty faint, cause i slobbed on to much paint, making the web further faint. well, who can blame me except, me. all in all, i dont have an eye for art, so i dont have this talent in me, cause i am always lack in talent. reason? i dont even have a talent. not even a hidden one. good memory? NAH. people will just think that i just made it up or something, cause i can only remember everything except studies. so yeah, that leaves me with, let me see... NO TALENT AT ALL. most probably i'm born being talentless. oh hoora. *snickers* [[lovin you`my place]]

mothers' day is here to stay

2005-05-08T22:20:00.000-07:00

tis' the season to be jolly, lar lar lar lar lar lar, lar lar lar, LAR. happy mommas' day! woohoo! woke up real early today to preapre scrambled eggs for my mum. though it was too watery, *gulp* added too much milk siah... =P not saltish enough. =P i dare not risk adding half a spoonful of salt cause i am poor in judging when it comes to cooking. presented her with a card, phew! well, guess i woke doubbly early form other mothers' day, usually i'll sleep in. gosh, what made my wake up? i slept at 1.23am in the morn, only to wake up at 7.39am? woah. i only clocked up to 6 hours 16 minutes of sleep. woot! this is the first time i ever got the motivation to wake up early to surprise my mum! ok. next year, another go at it. maybe not scrambled eggs, maybe something else next time... lets see what other cooking can i pick up, apart form frying an egg and cooking maggie mian, that is. ok. spagetti seems too extravagant. something simple. ar, i dont wanna spoil the mood next year, so i'll secretly plan... anyway, anyhows, we managed to finish the scrapbook just in time, before 10pm. no sweat. my brother developed the photos and wa-laa! my mum read it and she said it was a blast. mission accomplished. ok. it was a scrapbook, filled with pictures, and captions and doodling, and it was my brother's idea. awww... so sweet. aint he a doll? X) well, like they say, its the thought that counts and touches the heart. after all, it was innovative of my brother to have thought of that. i even spent exam nights picking the photos to develop, of course, with him around. hmm, good memories stays with me forever. so sweet. *dramatically weeps* [[arty farty`quidam]]